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ra1nw3rldd
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- Sep 13, 2023
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I ask this because im not diagnosed, but might have had a few reasons to suspect it in myself (& i think some people i used to talk to suspect that of me now)
However i've had no one to speak to regularily in person since last year (other than my parents), and my life has been very lonely since before then as well.
So there aren't many situations where the usual stereotypical BPD social behavior could even show up.
(In the few social examples i have, i personally might resemble what I've read about 'quiet BPD' more, for example I don't think I've ever really 'split' on my opinion of other people, but might feel bad / sick / paranoid about myself / how im perceived and withdraw)
But I'm not really asking for advice about myself, more to hear others' experiences
& hopefully learn a bit more about what the subjective experience of BPD feels like (epecially if anyone reading this is similarly isolated, since everything i can find online is from much more 'normal' people with social lives who thus have more examples to draw off of the more obvious BPD behaviors)
i was also curious if people have experiences with 'mirrorring' in absence of actual in-person interaction, like maybe if it happens with strangers on social media, celebrities / musicians you like or anything like that
(I'll add a bit more about myself below as well, you can stop here or keep reading if u care)
about BPD 'mirrorring'/ 'the Chameleon effect', what I've read online seems to imply like a total absence of individual identity, like not knowing what you like or dislike outside of what you reflect from other people
however, personally im a huge music nerd with very niche interests (which i might often overshare in an attempt to be likeable
i think i would be unable to 'mirror' most boring normal people who like sports for example
i might also be autistic lol)
and this is a bit blunt to say out loud, (but I don't think this is a very judgemental forum), i was also personally trying to differentiate between gender dysphoria and BPD dissociation / depersonalization / derealization, identity disturbance, self-hate, that kind of thing.
(and possibly mirroring twitter mutuals / or trying to regain social connections with people i used to talk to who are trans, that Seriously isnt my reasoning but it might look that to them since they think i have BPD lol my life fucking sucks)
anyway im asking cause i wanna hear about Other people's experiences, please do share below :
However i've had no one to speak to regularily in person since last year (other than my parents), and my life has been very lonely since before then as well.
So there aren't many situations where the usual stereotypical BPD social behavior could even show up.
(In the few social examples i have, i personally might resemble what I've read about 'quiet BPD' more, for example I don't think I've ever really 'split' on my opinion of other people, but might feel bad / sick / paranoid about myself / how im perceived and withdraw)
But I'm not really asking for advice about myself, more to hear others' experiences
& hopefully learn a bit more about what the subjective experience of BPD feels like (epecially if anyone reading this is similarly isolated, since everything i can find online is from much more 'normal' people with social lives who thus have more examples to draw off of the more obvious BPD behaviors)
i was also curious if people have experiences with 'mirrorring' in absence of actual in-person interaction, like maybe if it happens with strangers on social media, celebrities / musicians you like or anything like that
(I'll add a bit more about myself below as well, you can stop here or keep reading if u care)
about BPD 'mirrorring'/ 'the Chameleon effect', what I've read online seems to imply like a total absence of individual identity, like not knowing what you like or dislike outside of what you reflect from other people
however, personally im a huge music nerd with very niche interests (which i might often overshare in an attempt to be likeable
i think i would be unable to 'mirror' most boring normal people who like sports for example
i might also be autistic lol)
and this is a bit blunt to say out loud, (but I don't think this is a very judgemental forum), i was also personally trying to differentiate between gender dysphoria and BPD dissociation / depersonalization / derealization, identity disturbance, self-hate, that kind of thing.
(and possibly mirroring twitter mutuals / or trying to regain social connections with people i used to talk to who are trans, that Seriously isnt my reasoning but it might look that to them since they think i have BPD lol my life fucking sucks)
anyway im asking cause i wanna hear about Other people's experiences, please do share below :
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