Does anyone have social anxiety that makes you have want to ctb?

[ikigaimg]

I have extreme social anxiety and it's one of the main reasons I want to ctb

 

[maylurker]

yes and adhd

 

[nintendo64]

Definitely. I've always had severe generalized anxiety disorder, and it makes me freak out just interacting with anyone I hate it so much. I don't know how anyone can just be normal.
I'm sorry you have social anxiety too, this disorder can be life ruining.

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

I just want to be accepted by ppl

 

[tzon]

Yes. I do have anxiety in general and particularly social anxiety.

Now, while I do have extreme social anxiety, I have had experiences where exposure combined with some meds helped significantly. Regarding the meds (benzodiazepines), I was on a dose that sounds absolutely ridicilously low to me right now. As I became more comfortable and confident in social settings, I needed much lower doses of benzos. Baby doses. Maybe what I was given were just placebos, idk.

On these ocassions, I've destroyed everything with my nuclear "cure" to all kinds of anxiety, which is alcohol. Just one drunk night can lead to a total destruction of what I built. Needs to be kept in the back of my mind.

I will try again in 2026 with the expore therapy approach, and assess my whole personal situation in general, not just anxiety, after around 3 months. I'm sure I'll have bad days and consider CTB before then, but I'm looking three months ahead and do not plan to act on it.

 

[violetforever]

i would say i have social anxiety. when i'm in public i usually feel so overwhelmingly out of place and insecure in my body/existence, even if i'm with someone else. all i want to do is get home and be alone again. it feels isolating to see other people function like a regular human being or happily socialize. i can't even pretend to be normal, in fact i think i even purposely try to make myself come off as more shy so people feel bad for me like a lost child or something??? but their disappointed looks bother me too. i especially hate being looked at by men. i avoid interacting with them because it disorientates me. i'll have to manage when i go back to school and get a job.

 

[descending]

My social anxiety was way worse in my early 20s but I still struggle with unexpected interactions (e.g. people stopping me in the street to ask me something). The worst part is replaying bad or awkward interactions - sometimes from decades ago - in my head. It sometimes makes me physically shudder or punch myself (not hard) in the face as if to say 'what were you thinking?'. I feel like I need to keep any interactions to a minimum so that any bad ones don't get added to the 'list' that'll be replayed in my head in the future.

 

[Ashborne_Quietus]

It's terrible, they are resistant to all therapies and drugs including

 

[NonEssential]

Yeah, it's a pretty terrible thing, haven't had an irl friend thanks to it for over a decade.

 

[linnea56]

I just want to be accepted by ppl

there are so many people that would accept you :( makes me so sad to read

 

[Theresnoescape]

Yeah, I do. It used to be really bad, the only thing that's helped is sertraline and propranolol. It just calms me down in those situations. I still have bad days, but nothing like they used to be.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's certainly held me back in life. Possibly from things that would have made me happier. But then, I'm content being alone and can be whilst I'm able to work from home. So- it isn't an everyday aggravation for me. More something that absolutely made life harder and influenced my decision making.

 

[peacecomingsoon]

Yes, absolutely. Really depresses me honestly as I realise that even if my depressive episodes went away, the social anxiety will still be there and always remain. It's such a pain and so difficult to resolve or treat too. In addition to the anxieties helping you see how fake and transactional or superficial most people and relationships are in real life... Always will limit my life and prevent me from reaching any possible potential I could have had. Everything I could have been or had taken away by this endless cycle of depression and social anxiety. The social anxiety just solidifies the hopelessness really. I wish you the best, truly.

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

there are so many people that would accept you :( makes me so sad to read

I wish there were

 

[Grimlock]

Absolutely, I have ruined parts of my life because of it.

 

[Tautochrome]

Sure, it's one of the reasons. It's always been there, and always will, I'm afraid. At times I'm more worried about my body's uncontrolled reactions like nausea or increased heart rate than about the interaction itself. It feels like being betrayed by my own reactions, my own instincts, definitely not a part of who I am. Exposure and meds help, temporarily. I get kind of comfortable during one meeting, come back home completely drained and next day I'm back to my anxious self. Square one.

 

[Asuraa]

i also do and adhd makes me not be able to do anything and it makes me feel absolutely horrendous and useless im on sertraline now hopefully it helps me

 

[Kazu Ha]

Yep, I also have social anxiety and BPD. Both of these things are completely destroying me.
I even went to a therapist who specializes in social anxiety, but it didn't helped at all.

My last hope were my two best friends, but they both let me down.