Does anyone feel like hikikomori?

[DivineSpark]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[rainw3rld4ngel]

i mean some of us literally are its not really something you just 'feel like'

i guess the phrase 'NEET' is more common outside of japan (but also a broader term)

 

[DerezzMyself143]

I was living as one since COVID started. When it started to fade and the opportunity arose... I prefered to hide. Five years living like the social outcast that I am. Wasn't until very recently when I finally decided to slowly reintroduce myself to society after a moment of recovery but... it's too scary. They will never accept a freak like me. They see myself and the ones with my condition like complete demons that should be erradicated from this world. Maybe they're right. Maybe I should do them a favor and ctb.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Finally I have a word for my pain. they call it PSTD, but also its meaningless for them. So long as I know Im happy.

 

[PrismHon]

I've always considered myself adjacent to them. I do have a job but I don't go out at all and do not have friends.

I used to live in Japan and I actually bought a couple of issues of a hikikomori newsletter, which was like a collection of articles from different hikikomori.

 

[NonEssential]

Used to be for the past 3 years, but I went back to school this year.

 

[DivineSpark]

Used to be for the past 3 years, but I went back to school this year.

was it easy to become social again?

 

[getoutgirl]

Been in and out of that lifestyle because my family would get pissed or sad or worried so I put on the act just fot them. Months in my room in total darkness and the screen tho? Yeah done that. It's a safety cocoon that replaces he otherwise overwhelming emotional pain of reality for a more slow, quiet and corroding pain that slowly eats and numbs you, like a leech that injects anesthetic venom as it drains you. It's also in simpler terms a miserable state of existence in the long run. Total shit. Not living, surviving for nothing.

I was living as one since COVID started. When it started to fade and the opportunity arose... I prefered to hide. Five years living like the social outcast that I am. Wasn't until very recently when I finally decided to slowly reintroduce myself to society after a moment of recovery but... it's too scary. They will never accept a freak like me. They see myself and the ones with my condition like complete demons that should be erradicated from this world. Maybe they're right. Maybe I should do them a favor and ctb.

That takes tremendous effort and the world is not often kind to those who struggle. They are not right on that and imo you shouldn't favour them in the slightest. If you were to die they don't deserve that being for them. That's my opinon. But I get how hard it is and how exhausting. hugs your way <3

 

[Goodfornothingbish]

I was for 4 months. Drove me insane. Now I have friends again and I feel like I am getting better.

 

[Dark Moon]

I'm pretty much like this and have been for a long time. I just exist I'm not really living. I do want to come out of it and perhaps go back to education and/or find work before I die but I don't really have the support to do that.

 

[LittleMagician]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Yeah

 

[8leveloquenfrn4evr8]

Absolutely. It seems like it isn't that bad from the outside but it is horrible. It takes a toll and after a certain point it is impossible to ever hope to function as a normie ever again.

 

[soledad.virgen]

i used to be one for like four years, it's very much like dying in slow motion. i got out of the neet/hikkimori life this year by going back to college, but i feel like an orphan from my lack of a social life in my early 20s, it's hard to make friends in college when ur in ur mid 20s. sometimes it feels like people can clock that i want to die though, maybe i just give off like "wow that person won't even be here in a year why would i talk to them" vibes hhh. and hopefully they are right

 

[cme-dme]

If I didn't have a job I probably would be >.< when I'm not working I'm in my room pretty much the entire day...

 

[Custos]

Yes

 

[cme-dme]

Been in and out of that lifestyle because my family would get pissed or sad or worried so I put on the act just fot them. Months in my room in total darkness and the screen tho? Yeah done that. It's a safety cocoon that replaces he otherwise overwhelming emotional pain of reality for a more slow, quiet and corroding pain that slowly eats and numbs you, like a leech that injects anesthetic venom as it drains you. It's also in simpler terms a miserable state of existence in the long run. Total shit. Not living, surviving for nothing.

Ugh...been feeling this as well >.< Ever since my car broke down I have been more isolated than I ever had been before...Its been about 7 months since then, pretty much all I do is work then come home and spend the remainder of the day in my room in the dark on my laptop :( I'm starting to feel what I think is the onset of the pain you speak of :( Its like a weight on your psyche where every day 1 lb is added to the weight and life just feels worse now >.<

 

[NonEssential]

was it easy to become social again?

I'm not exactly social, I just go and do what I'm told. Only social thing I do is ask the teacher for clarification if I don't understand something.

 

[anonymouswebuser]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

ever since the pandemic yeah
but lately I'm forced to go outside because by my family.

 

[maneose]

even though i don't fill the criteria.. (in school & have a job) and kinda do have a lot of people i can talk to, i tend to self isolate way too much and ignore anyone i can reach out too because i'm too exhausted to talk to anyone (it's been like a month since i've talked to alot of my friends that i speak majority online too). and when i am with my friends i feel really disconnected and just, kinda alone? idk i'm reaching out to my old middle school friend group which has made me feel less alone, but still i'm filled with guilt—like i don't deserve them. my sitting spaces definitely do feel like it's becoming NEET-ish, acrylic's/figures/plushies. i actually bought a happi so i could wear it around the house lol

 

[thereisnoneed]

I have been a Hiki for too long that i forgot a lot of my native language due to spending too much time on western internet with minimum social interaction I.R.L

 

[matchalavendercake]

i do for sureee

 

[Forever Sleep]

In terms of hardly ever leaving the house- yes. But, I do work (from home- obviously.)