Venting Does anyone else wish they could have someone to talk to but hate socializing?

[quiet.rabbit]

Being a culture-less person is hell. Relationships are full of misunderstanding and lack of accountability. Ostracism and harassment are normal. You occasionally get a talk about how life is about learning to be better and then those same people punish you harshly for making a mistake because you don't know when and how to apologize.

My social skills have been atrophied by all the isolation I've been through, and I don't share my beliefs and perspectives with people around me. I'm oblivious to a lot of social norms and rules, and I hate social hierarchies. Recently I'm starting to realize the most I can hope for is being ignored. Nobody will ever look at me with love or appreciation or even basic respect even if I start taking care of myself now.

Teachers, therapists, and family try to work with you and grow frustated. They push you to someone else, or straight up abandon you. You just can't fix stupid. I have no idea why I was born so dense.

 

[yume]

I've always suffered from really bad social anxiety. I've gotten better at managing it online, at least a little bit, but simply the thought of going out in public and talking to people irl is enough to make me sick most days. While the reason is different, I empathize with how you feel, and for what it's worth, I really hope you can find at least one person to confide in honestly without fear of being punished or abandoned. I wish you the best.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I don't really talk to anyone anymore - I prefer to be alone most days, only really speaking to others outside of here when I need to fulfill basic social needs.

A lot of people will abandon you and leave you for dead, my girlfriend left me at my worst. It's even a miracle I'm still alive today despite that. I don't really trust anyone now, I'm sure it'll end up biting me back but I really don't care anymore.

I just talk to others online at least they want to deal with me right? No social, moral obligation to talk to me.

 

[iamnotokaywiththis]

i feel like i get what you mean. i have one or two 'close' friends, but at the end of the day it's always me who makes first contact and it's always them who push me away. i feel so lonely at work- it's actually crippling how empty the chasm in my chest is. society would have me fill this gap with people and with socialising. but i just can't bring myself to do it, it's tiring and it never works out. people find me either too much, or not enough to deal with.

 

[Janine]

Hey, don't beat yourself up about it. It's of no use. I've realized that I'm off better on my own because there's no point in trying if the outcome is obvious.

They push you to someone else, or straight up abandon you.

It happens and will always happen, it's just the way self-centered people function. But that doesn't mean there aren't good people still out there, the decision is solely up to you; do you actually want contact to others or are you only seeking acceptance and validation? All the best.

 

[bloop714]

Relatable,I have no friends at all due to my bad socialization skills. But I feel jealous when I see people roaming around in friend groups.

 

[ptolemaea]

i never had any friends growing up. now, i hardly ever leave my house and don't interact with anyone outside of my family. i'm not very close with them either. i find myself desiring friendship less and less. it isn't worth the hassle. i do wish people had been kinder to me.