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Thatdude
Life is temporary, death is permanent
- Sep 26, 2019
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For the past 10 years or so I've been dealing with extreme stress. Like extreme extreme. It gotten worse when I tried to join the military and couldn't because I'm autistic. And that caused me to look into why I was having such a hard time in the job market. like prior I was blaming myself, but I couldn't figure out even with several degrees, been in newspapers for doing good things, and so on. Why was it that others who didn't even do an ounce of what I did was getting really really really really far ahead of me. Why they were able to get the job, keep the job, and so on. I found out 85% of autistic people with a degree doesn't have a job, only 12% of us can even make enough to live off of, that we are one of the if not the most discriminated group out there. Like I thought my experience with extreme workplace harassment and so on was just me, but looking into it the fact is, it's extremely common with those who are autistic. That autistic is one of the highest likely to offing ourselves (even more if you're high functioning).
Anyways, I asked around a while back on some things I've experienced after my last degree and many pointed out I'm most likely dealing with autistic burnout. This is much much much worse than normal burnout, and the person might never recover. Like with me, it has gotten so bad that I only have enough brainpower to make logical choices a few hours a day at best, and it's so bad it's extremely dangerous for me to drive. Like as a passenger I a few times seen a red light and kept wondering why it was red, what it meant, and I forgot you can crash into cars ahead of you. Like if I was driving those few times I would've 100% wrecked. Even doing basic things like an email, during the start I might sound good. But towards the end I might sound like a complete idiot.
Now I notice any small stress I might be in, my anxiety shoots up. Like to the point I start throwing up. I'm wondering if this has to deal with extreme stress for a long time.
Anyways, I asked around a while back on some things I've experienced after my last degree and many pointed out I'm most likely dealing with autistic burnout. This is much much much worse than normal burnout, and the person might never recover. Like with me, it has gotten so bad that I only have enough brainpower to make logical choices a few hours a day at best, and it's so bad it's extremely dangerous for me to drive. Like as a passenger I a few times seen a red light and kept wondering why it was red, what it meant, and I forgot you can crash into cars ahead of you. Like if I was driving those few times I would've 100% wrecked. Even doing basic things like an email, during the start I might sound good. But towards the end I might sound like a complete idiot.
Now I notice any small stress I might be in, my anxiety shoots up. Like to the point I start throwing up. I'm wondering if this has to deal with extreme stress for a long time.