Does anyone else sometimes get this overwhelming love and appreciation for life and its beauty?

[uuser1412]

In brief moments of expansion, I just get overwhelmed with emotions from how beautiful life is, it's one of the only things giving me hope things will get better. I was wondering if anyone else experiences this as well

 

[tiokapaws]

Yes! It's actually the main thing that's been causing me the biggest grief in my life tbh. Back when I was younger, I was constantly depressed. But now I do understand and recognise the beauty there is in life. The simple act of being able to breathe air in through my lungs, to eat my favourite foods and to laugh and smile and do a bunch of other fun things too.

I'm in so much pain but I always think of how if I ctb, then I'll never get to experience life again. So it's just a matter if a lifetime of experiences is worth a lifetime of suffering. And I'm still deciding on the answer lmao

 

[Mgelanie]

In brief moments of expansion, I just get overwhelmed with emotions from how beautiful life is, it's one of the only things giving me hope things will get better. I was wondering if anyone else experiences this as well

ngl I never felt this way before

 

[Spike Spiegel]

Yes, but I also have developed a sense of appreciation for the pain as well. This may sound weird but hear me out. When I go through depressive bouts I usually feel numb to everything. In the moments I was closest to CTB I felt nothing, the feeling of nothingness was the worst. I felt like I did not exist that I was just drifting through nothing. Since my recovery journey I have been able to find beauty in all emotions even the painful ones. When someone close to me passed away I remember just being thankful that I felt something. Granted I was sad and heart broken and went through the stages of grief. But I remember just being relieved and almost appreciative of the fact I felt these emotions. Because when I was at my worst I felt nothing. Even now when I get sick or even physically hurt in the moment obviously I do not enjoy these feelings. But after the fact I am just happy that I am alive to feel them. To feel the spectrum of human emotions is a gift that I did not always appreciate. This mindset also makes me appreciate the world's beauty and positive emotions that much more. Even the simple things I try to be thankful for. When I am laying in bed high, watching anime or youtube, laying on my favorite pillow in my comfy bed I often think how thankful I am, even just for the simplest pleasures in life.

 

[derpyderpins]

Yeah I see a lot as beautiful about the world, and every now and then I get to feel it.

Hold onto those moments and savor them. Commit them to memory. I haven't had one in a good bit now, but I know they've happened so I can believe they'll come again.