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liluglibih
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- Jul 14, 2020
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..things to get around, avoid, keep happy, so that they won't hate you and torture you too much? We're supposed to be social creatures, we're not meant to be alone, no man is an island blah blah blah.. well, I would really like my own island. I've been alone for too long, I don't know how to function around people, I never did. Any slight altercation stresses me out and plays on my mind like a fucking loop, I can't seem to let anything go.. I replay every conversation that I have no matter how boring and criticise every detail. I'm convinced that I'm taking up space that belongs to someone else and that I'm just wasting my time doing an imitation(a bad one) of a person. Someone said to me once 'why can't life be like a movie', and I was thinking.. it is, it just doesn't end after 1hr45mins.. it's a very looooong movie. Nothing gets cut, shooting 24/7, low budget, dialogue is 100% improv, no hair and make-up, no catering, you want special effects? take some drugs. You're the lead, you're a star baby! Annnnd action! Vent over.