lostmilo
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- Aug 19, 2024
- 19
I know it sounds selfish. I've been suicidal multiple times in my life before but it's never been this bad. Before people telling me that they loved me would temporarily numb the thoughts of suicide. But now I feel like I've gotten to the point that it doesn't mean anything to me. I know that I have friends that love me and they tell me that at random times mostly because they know how depressed I am and they are constantly worried when I don't reply to messages. I love then too and they are probably the best friends I've ever had but I can't help still wanting to cbt despite how many people 'love' me. My issue is with the world and my fucked up circumstances, not my relationships with others. I could literally be the most loved and famous and cherished and I would still wake up and research cbt methods everyday.