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urgent

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Dec 6, 2025
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I think the majority here are younger than me.For years I've had a great deal of physical pain. I've been struggling,been on a few medications that have made my health worse.Please check out medications your given. Read about what others on them have reported. I used to be able to manage my mental health better by daily work, exercise, sunlight, distraction Little by little my health got worse,accidents, injuries, medications, an epidural puncture, kidney problems from Lupus.I couldn't do what helped. Now it hurts to eat, walk, do nothing. I'm constantly overwhelmed by anxiety, pain, fear.I can't enjoy food,a movie. I don't go out. I've isolated. I can't sleep even with a sleeping pill.I want medical aid in dying but I can't travel, it's not available here yet.I didn't know to prepare options while I was able. My pain is really unbearable.I need to find a way.I have read everything.I haven't figured out how I can get or do it myself.I'm trying to find out what the latest PPeh says about drug combinations or if it is even in there anymore? I can't find it. I don't have the ebook. Is anyone here in the Exit forum you can join? It looks like you have to buy the book and join the forum but you also have to wait a month.Im curious about it but I don't think they can talk about drugs. I think maybe only guides have the info. I hope most of you are doing better than me.I suggest checking out your meds. Gabapentin, ambien wellbutrin and many more have caused problems for many people.
 
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pax420

Someone in my head but it's not me
Jan 19, 2026
4
Im really new here this is my second post/reply. I don't know what I can and can't say so I'll leave the ideas and suggestions to the more experienced people who have bern here a while, but I will say this. I feel for you man. I'm in a great deal of severe pain, different than yours, but pain. I had 17 surgeries in 14 years. I have fallen a few times this past year and broke my shoulder, 3 ribs, and crushed 2 ribs. I ripped open my knee and and had to have 36 stitches to sew it up. I have osteo and rheumatoid arthritis. I know pain and I know all about wanting to ctb. I hate every day I wake up and go to sleep hoping I won't. Pain is one reason. There are quite a few more. I wish I could help you out but I do hope you find peace and lasting relief.
 
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urgent

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Dec 6, 2025
81
Thank you. I'm sorry you are in pain to. I've had some broken bones.My entire spine is destroyed. I have osteoarthritis too. But osteoporosis, degenerative disc disease, pernicious anemia, sciatica, lupus keeps getting worse. Insomnia, TMJ, burning mouth and tongue syndrome have gotten extremely worse.I have gastritis ulcers and now gastroparesis so I'm in so much pain when I eat and drink, so I'm underweight and dehydrated. I managed herniated discs,bone spurs,tumors. I had a stim implant. I went from chiropractor,acupuncture, pt, red light therapy trigger point injections, epidurals, pain blocks, steroids and cipro, chemo so my physio said there's nothing else I can do, no more surgery can help. I just suffer and deteriorate. Nothing helps the pain.I have Hashimato disease also causes depression, many meds cause suicidal thoughts It's a catch 22.I tried everything to get better, somethings made it worse.i got used to living with pain.This is really extreme now. It will only get worse. I really can't take it.I relate to your pain, I know treating RA not many get relief from meds. I feel the same about waking up. I really appreciate your nice comments. You can PM me any ideas, lol.I'm sorry you're in pain. I hope the best for you. I wish you peace and relief as well. It hurts me to not be able to help. I hate for anyone to be in pain. You sound like a nice person. Thank you!
 
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U. A.

"Ultra Based Gigachad"
Aug 8, 2022
2,427
Sorry to welcome you.

Yes, about half the userbase is ≤25 and about two-thirds is ≤30. There isn't as much physical pain/disease commiserating as once upon a time, but this may be useful:
 
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aRose

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Jan 18, 2026
63
I'm also chronically il/in pain. Been fighting back this shit since I was a child and now nearly 40 I just can't fight anymore
 

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