Discussion Does anyone else have dreams where they ctb?

[Sixfeetunder]

I've been having some recently, and it's disappointing to wake up and realize that I was dreaming. Funny thing is the method is what I am going to use irl.

 

[johnny]

I just had a dream the other night that a good friend of mine from college ctb'd using a gun, and i was going to his funeral that was open casket (gross)

 

[Redt2go]

I've been having some recently, and it's disappointing to wake up and realize that I was dreaming. Funny thing is the method is what I am going to use irl.

No but I think about suicide in my dreams

 

[SelfishMom]

Yes, all the time.

 

[HellinHeaven]

I don't dream very much... too many cold thoughts in my mind instead or I'm just too tired.

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

A while ago I dreamed I took SN. It made me think 'maybe I could actually go through with this'.

 

[Smilla]

All the time, every time I dream I am either on a bus that is crashing, about to board a bus, talking N (although it's not my method), thinking about suicide, diving into a deep blue sea (an archetype of returning to the womb/pre birth possibly), saying goodbye to imaginary friends—all of my dreams have death as a theme-my own death and sometimes others.

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

I don't really dream of CTB but I do have precognition dreams from time to time and the last two came true and the next one is about me taking trazodone but I spit them out kind of concerned about it.

 

[waived]

No, but before I forget, I just woke up from a dream where I had built a tree without branches like a big vertical vine and built it while climbing it until it was really tall. I'm sure you can see where this is going. I built it to reach something else that was really tall and the final step was to lift myself up and stand on the very top of it so that I could then step to the other thing. No problem right? I had a reoccurring thought during the dream that this is one of these dreams where I fall and was kind of rolling my eyes at myself from slightly outside the dream as my dream character built this stupid thing. So yeah I fell but all the way to the bottom and felt it. Yuck.

 

[Redt2go]

was kind of rolling my eyes at myself from slightly outside the dream as my dream character built this stupid thing.

LMAO

 

[lost illusions]

Not necessarily ctb but dying. Becoming a bloody smear across a wall along i80 through donner pass and the other being buried alive

 

[daikon]

I've had dreams were I allow myself to die -- when I was a kid I had one where I was being chased by soldiers and stopped to let them shoot me, because I was semi-lucidly curious what it would be like to die. Another time I was on a sort of exploding building and I jumped off to save myself -- somehow I survived and everyone accused me of trying to trying to kill myself lol.

And of course I've had plenty of dreams about dying.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yeah several but I wake up before actually doing it.

 

[daikon]

Yeah several but I wake up before actually doing it.

Man, SI is a bitch!

 

[Santiago]

Well if daydreaming counts then yes. I like to walk at high places on the edge just to experience near death. Which is actually funny because I am afraid of heights and will never throw myself of a high place.

I've seen it go wrong too many times.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Man, SI is a bitch!

SI?

 

[daikon]

SI?

Survival instinct -- or, conversely, suicidal intent

 

[NumbItAll]

Last night I had a dream where I casually drank a bottle of N, as I had done several times before in Dreamworld. It then occurred to me that would probably kill me so I panicked and took anti-emetics to promote vomiting (??? dream logic). While vomiting profusely, I started to lose consciousness and eventually woke up.

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I dream I ctb all the time. The weird thing is I've been told it's impossible to dream of your death, but I do often.
Apparently you wake up before you die in your dreams??
I've also had dreams where I have had circular saws go through my head lol

 

[clownangel]

(Pardon me stumbling into a months dormant thread....)

Used to more in the past, can't remember much. Couple weeks ago I dreamt I kept trying and getting interrupted time after time no matter where I went or doors I locked and woke up so pissed off like...y'all won't even leave me alone in my dreams apparently lemme GO.

 

[bipolarg0ner]

Had a dream where I was bleeding to death it was so cold feeling my eyesight was fading I layed there looking at her while I bled then when my eyesight fully faded I woke up. ( It was cold because my window was open irl and it was super cold outside )

 

[Mort]

I do to in my dreams i am like a ghost looking at my self . I see my self walking into the woods and finding a big old tree. Then i see my self tie a rope around the strongest branch. Then i slip the nose around my neck and step of i here a crack as my neck breaks thrm ii am dead . At that point i feel so happy and relax know its all over then i wakes up :( and its back to my shitty life. Sum times i dreams what i would look like after a few days dead my rotting body slowly swinging in the breeze. It looks so peaceful i just wish it was for real . I know were the place is for real bin they a few times its hard to find if you dont know the were to go . So when i do end my life the chance of sum one finding my rotting corpse be very slim. Mind you the smell might give me away thats why I am thinking of doing it in winter. Still rott but the cold keep the smell down just wish to do it every time I get close to it i loose my bottle :( one day i will do it hope it's soon

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

I know that if I sleep in the cold without covering myself with a blanket I sometimes get lucid dreams that seem real almost precognitive dreams of what seems like a future or past event about real life sometimes it seems like a CTB or suicide related or distorted memories that plays as dreams but as of now I can't give a well thought out descriptive.