kunikuzushi
sause
- Jan 24, 2023
- 276
I've given up on building a life for myself for many reasons. But I still attempt to make my daily life more bearable. However, when I take large steps like seeing a new therapist or trying to improve my appearance, etc. I'm left in an overwhelming panic. I don't know what to do right now. I just wasted a bunch of money getting a haircut and color that make me look a million times worse. I already had trouble leaving my house, but now it's impossible. I feel deep regret for wasting money just to feel worse. And every time I do these things to try to feel better, they leave me feeling so much worse and unable to function. I don't know what's wrong with me. It would've been better to not try. The failures are too much for me in my constant anxious and suicidal state.