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they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
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divinemistress87
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,919
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
It's so boring and I just feel like my struggle isn't worth it. There's no payoff for me
Unknown21
Enlightened
- Apr 25, 2023
- 1,260
Life is exhausting, even in its simple aspects, such as eating, drinking, and bathing.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
Literally. Even mundane tasks take so much effort for me. Everything is just so boring and meaninglessYeah, I've found myself incredibly frustrated with how things are, and it's become such a bad joke to hear anyone tell me that things will get better in time and that I should just wait and see. Don't even get me started on the mundane tasks of it all including the health issues.
PetrichorBirth
Student
- Mar 5, 2024
- 164
divinemistress87
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,919
Depression is a bitch it makes everything seem boring and meaningless.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
I agree, but I also think that nihilism makes me feel like everything is meaningless as well. There's really no point to any of this. There's no meaning of lifeLast edited:
BlendedHeart
It is what it is
- Mar 9, 2024
- 295
From the moment I wake up, cursing I live to see another day. Making time until the night comes up again.
Battling constant feelings of anger and sadness. Trying to keep a semblance of normalcy. Trying to find meaning or enjoyment in anything.
Yes, it is exhausting.
EmptyHeaded
Experienced
- Jan 24, 2024
- 229
Sometimes I wish I had depression, as weird as that may sound.
Mirrory Me
"More then your eyes can see..."
- Mar 23, 2023
- 1,226
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
No because I don't want to take psychoactive/mind-altering drugs. The only drugs I've ever taken are anxiety and ADHD meds. I don't take anything rn
Tbh I don't even know if I have depression lol
Malaria
If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
- Feb 24, 2024
- 1,084
Yes, life is exhausting and I need to rest.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
It's so exhausting for no reason. I wish that I could rest forever
Bremer
Member
- Feb 2, 2024
- 31
divinemistress87
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,919
Haha I was just about to ask her that. They need to be done in the right setting though with a good trip sitterLast edited:
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,795
I always have and I always will. Existence will always be undesirable for me and I can only truly be in peace once my consciousness is erased. Being conscious is a curse to me
Mirrory Me
"More then your eyes can see..."
- Mar 23, 2023
- 1,226
Oh - one of their effects is e.g. heightened energy and congitive euphoria. They can also be taken in microdoses, in which case they do not intoxicate but increase energy.
Everyone has their own tendencies and limits, e.g. I would not touch modern pharmaceutical drugs because of their side effects, but I would try to find a natural alternative.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
It's so annoying that I was saddled with this burden of existence, which I never even wanted anyways. I hate how I wasn't able to consent to this
WhatPowerIs
Enlightened
- Jun 19, 2022
- 1,058
There's no point to any of it. I'll play a video game and stop and go "why am I doing this". Then I go do homework and study and I ask myself the same thing.
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,795
I relate so much. No matter whether I'm dead in a few years or in a few decades, I will always believe that it's better for me to never have been born. Even if I die today, I will still think that it's better to never have been
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
I feel nothing at all, but boredom and emptiness. There's just no point to all of this. It's too much trouble for what it's worth. There's no reward in life except for death. I'm not even going to try anymore. All of my efforts are futile and will lead to nowhere. There's nothing that I want out of life anyways
0000000000000
A clown 🤡
- Jan 2, 2023
- 200
Yeah, i'm sick of dealing with this shit. I can't wait to leave this shitty planet full of clowns.Yes. I'm tired of responsibilities. Tired of trying (and failing.) That's mostly why death is so appealing to me.
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,705
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i am so lainpilled :3 (? days left)
- Apr 15, 2023
- 264
Yeah I constantly embarrass and humiliate myself whenever I try to do anything in the real world. Sitting online all day and never leaving the house would be ideal but that's not a life I want for myself so waiting to dieYes, I have called in sick to work many times
Cancelled many plans
Some days i dont get out of bed until 3pm.
Physically and mentally exhausted.Similar threads
