Venting does anyone else feel socially retarded?

[xBones]

i straight up feel like a dumbass when im hanging out with people. my tattoo artist even told me that im weird, and everyone mentions it too. like first of all, being weird is not bad but fuck you for making it seem like it is. i usually dont know how to respond in social situations so that leads me to say weird shit. anyone else ?

 

[Schopenhauer]

That's me too :(

 

[worldexploder]

I went though phases were I did pretty good. I get insecure easily. Trying to mask my misery doesn't help. I do a lot better with conversations when they are one on one. I'm good with small talk when it comes to people I don't know, and long conversations with people I know very well.

 

[Alex]

That's how I feel all the time. I recently found out I'm like that because I have a form of high functioning autism. You probably have it too. They make drugs that help that a doctor can prescribe to you (unfortunately you can't ctb with any of them :( )

 

[Johnnythefox]

I would agree with the autism theory, I get the same at times. Dr told me to write a list of behavioural traits I think I have and now waiting for a diagnosis..

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

i usually dont know how to respond in social situations so that leads me to say weird shit. anyone else ?[/QU

Me and you are in the same boat. Plus I hate making eye contact. Doing so wipes the smile right off my face because I'm so worried about my eyes and how worried I know they look to other people. My eyes look worried because I've got social anxiety disorder!! Words just kind of flow out of my mouth like slow lava. I disassociate when I talk to where I'm talking but mentally am not there. And this social anxiety just does not seem to be getting better. I'm 30 now, maybe it'll be better at 40, as if I could hold on that long. Sorry for hijacking your thread...what caused your social awkwardness? We're you a shy child/teen?

 

[bunny]

yeah. i spent most of my life in hospitals, so when i'm in the outside world i have no idea how to interact. it's very alienating and scary. i don't really have common interests (any interests at all, really) and i genuinely feel stuck in the past: the time where i wasn't in hospitals. so essentially, i think i act like a small child

 

[Schopenhauer]

yeah. i spent most of my life in hospitals, so when i'm in the outside world i have no idea how to interact. it's very alienating and scary. i don't really have common interests (any interests at all, really) and i genuinely feel stuck in the past: the time where i wasn't in hospitals. so essentially, i think i act like a small child

I'm sorry. You must feel awful all the time. Why were you hospitalized? If that's a sensitive subject, disregard the question forthwith.

 

[Xaphous]

Isolation made me socially retarded. I'm used to never talking really so if suddenly I'm in a situation where I have to respond I can seem angry or a monotone verbal sludge comes out. Then I feel angry I couldn't express myself adequately.

 

[Retched]

I used to be socially acceptable but have turned socially retarded because I don't pay attention to the news, I'm in an unsuitable job (which they will soon figure out I can't do what is expected because I inflated my talents during the interview) and well, more long story, but I'm super isolated now and don't know what to say to anyone. No real hobbies right now. So yeah.

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. I've always been a social outcast.

 

[Virgo]

Yup. I am shit at socializing.

 

[TAW122]

I'm socially retarded myself mostly due to Aspergers. People (especially those who are good at reading others) can oftenly pick out my social ineptness. I still try my best to appear normal so people will give me less shit, but I've come to terms that I'll always be socially inept and shit for the rest of my life (thanks Aspergers for fucking up my social life).

 

[bunny]

I'm sorry. You must feel awful all the time. Why were you hospitalized? If that's a sensitive subject, disregard the question forthwith.

i was sexually abused as a child. things exploded from there ::(

 

[wiIIow]

yes

 

[Schopenhauer]

i was sexually abused as a child. things exploded from there ::(

I'm really, really sorry. This makes me so angry at the world. I hope you find your peace :)

 

[oldgray]

yeah but it's not a feeling

 

[Going Home]

When there are things going on that disorient me then I cannot function socially. That's why on job applications when they ask if you have a disability I used to always check "YES" but sometimes I would forget.
I'm not in a way I can really work now. I have a pt time job but I'm quitting soon.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I can put on a good show and seem perfectly fine for the most part. But it's in the small things with me - occasionally saying something awkward or a little off color, being quick to escape the social situation, feeling internally uncomfortable the whole time and basically counting the seconds until I can get away. I have a certain rehearsed glibness that allows me to pull this off, but it's just an act. I am a pure introvert and have no friends by my own choice.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I either freeze or dissociate. I just don't deal well.

 

[Pointlesslife]

I am generally a socially awkward person

 

[Chloe]

I am very sorry that all of you are retarded
socially
I used to have Social anxiety,but now i am almost better.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net helped me
Thank you ;)

 

[Mr2005]

I so am. That's what continuing to take a drug for over a decade when it was doing me no good will do. There's very few people who 's company I'm comfortable in. I end up hating myself more every time I interact because I know I 'm smarter than the shit I'm saying usually due to panic

 

[xBones]

Me and you are in the same boat. Plus I hate making eye contact. Doing so wipes the smile right off my face because I'm so worried about my eyes and how worried I know they look to other people. My eyes look worried because I've got social anxiety disorder!! Words just kind of flow out of my mouth like slow lava. I disassociate when I talk to where I'm talking but mentally am not there. And this social anxiety just does not seem to be getting better. I'm 30 now, maybe it'll be better at 40, as if I could hold on that long. Sorry for hijacking your thread...what caused your social awkwardness? We're you a shy child/teen?

you are not hijacking my thread haha... i posted it for the replies!! I never make eye contact, i dont have enough confidence to focus on what I want to say and having to look at them. but ive never really had a solid group of friends growing up, i've been known as a "cool kid" so everyone was my 'friend'. but when it came down to it, they were only friend when they had to see me (school, work) plus im gay so people don't always want to hangout with me lol. i'll bet once i kill myself all these "friends" who haven't hit me up in years are going to post about how much they 'miss me', it makes me sick.

 

[xBones]

I so am. That's what continuing to take a drug for over a decade when it was doing me no good will do. There's very few people who 's company I'm comfortable in. I end up hating myself more every time I interact because I know I 'm smarter than the shit I'm saying usually due to panic

" i know im smarter than the shit im saying due to panic", holy shit, that is my entire life. I know what i want to say but when im in conversation i trip over my words, stutter, mumble, basically i just make an ass of myself. sucks

 

[xBones]

yeah but it's not a feeling

great point

 

[xBones]

yeah. i spent most of my life in hospitals, so when i'm in the outside world i have no idea how to interact. it's very alienating and scary. i don't really have common interests (any interests at all, really) and i genuinely feel stuck in the past: the time where i wasn't in hospitals. so essentially, i think i act like a small child

my sister has been spending her entire life in and out of the hospital, multiple visits per week, so although i understand i can only empathize what you had to go through. i wasn't sick, but ive been isolating myself so much ive lost all my interests as well, its so hard to relate to people. can i ask how old you are?

 

[Xerxes]

That moment when you're too weird and people think you're gonna shoot up some place.

 

[xBones]

That moment when you're too weird and people think you're gonna shoot up some place.

this made me lol

 

[Letting Go]

Yes, I am out of my element when around other people.