Venting does anyone else feel like this is all just... way too much to handle?

[WatchMeRot]

i was born with multiple learning disabilities, mental illnesses, ADHD and tourette's syndrome.

life is moving way too quickly for me and is difficult/impossible in every aspect, from going to school, to having a job, to having a social life, to even taking care of myself.
i've been locking myself in my room for the past few years, scared to even be perceived by others. haven't even worked a day in my life, and i am almost 19.
everyone in my life is begging me to get a job and a life, but i can't even manage to get up in the morning.

my mind is like a cage that i can't get out of, and every time i try to get out, i fall to an ever deeper depression than before.

it's not worth it, it never was, and it never will. i was fucked from the beginning without even realizing it.

 

[Surai]

I wish we could all be free Its all too much, Why do people, why does life have to be this fast, I hope you dont suffer too much. Its all too much

 

[Hollowman]

Every day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine it must be tiring what you've been through, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, in my case I'm certainly not meant to exist, I've always found it painful and dreadful to suffer in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.