Venting Does anyone else feel like they are not meant for this life

[Gaga786]

Unusualness furtively made its way into my life for as long as I can remember. I have always felt odd and peculiar as compared to my peers, and now this feeling is amplified. I have always tried to be kind yet people have exploited that. I want to make this life a better place for everyone as I don't want anyone else to endure what I went through yet sometimes it doesn't matter. The negatives overpower the positives In this life.
I apologise to anyone on here who has felt uncomfortable because of me. That was never my intention.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Yes yes yes yes yes. I never felt like I belonged here and I've always done everything I can to force it, but in the end it's just not for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Absolutely, that is exactly the way that I've always felt. I really do believe that it's true that some people are just not meant for existing and it's just the way that things are. Existing has always been something that I despise and see as being completely unappealing, in my case life itself certainly is the true problem so of course only death could ever be the solution for me. The very nature and reality of existing is something that I could never wish to associate with.

 

[Hollowman]

Every day

 

[existenceisacurse]

I tried my best

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I know so.

 

[Falseunderworld]

I have a firm belief that I'm just not right that I'm not supposed to be here. This life is not mine,that I'm just some shell that contains a soul, but that's not my body and I shouldn't exist, I don't want this life it's not mine, I'm not meant for life

 

[Forever Sleep]

Definitely. Social anxiety and lack of confidence makes me terrified of doing so much in life. I've been ok the past few years because I could work from home. Now, I need a proper job though and I'm dreading all of it. I simply don't want to rejoin this world in any capacity.

 

[Roseate]

I feel that. No matter how good I think I'm feeling, there is always that lingering feeling that I don't belong here. This world is such a cruel place. And no one is doing enough to make this place a livable place. People keep exploiting and killing and destroying it more. It's heartbreaking really.

 

[19nitten]

i think that absolutely nobody is meant for this life, the planet we know was a mistake, we have absolutely no idea why there's anything other than nothing. it doesn't matter what you believe in (Evolution, god, etc.) nobody really asks themselves why we are what we are? and knowing the meaning of life is particularly stupid. because we aren't normal. we have actually ruined everything that was ever good, we ruined the hope for life. this is the only place we have ever known, meaning we don't know how much better this can/should all be, and i want so much more than this life, life for me is unfulfilled, and i don't see any other way to change things

 

[Unending]

I feel very separate from this world and other humans.
It all feels pretty unnatural for me.
Not a big fan.

 

[lionetta12]

Unusualness furtively made its way into my life for as long as I can remember. I have always felt odd and peculiar as compared to my peers, and now this feeling is amplified. I have always tried to be kind yet people have exploited that. I want to make this life a better place for everyone as I don't want anyone else to endure what I went through yet sometimes it doesn't matter. The negatives overpower the positives In this life.
I apologise to anyone on here who has felt uncomfortable because of me. That was never my intention.

I feel like I'm not made for this society, that's why I'll try one last time to recover by surrounding myself with very specific people who are more similar to me, so that I can feel that there's a place in this world for people like myself.

 

[That's Not Me]

People who think they were made for life simply haven't thought about it enough. To their credit. All I wanted was this. To live like everyone else without thinking too much about the purpose of the things I do. To like what people my age like. Maybe that's a good thing, right? What is the benefit of being in the majority? idk. I think the thing that describes me most is the song "I Just Wasn't Made for These Times" by the Beach Boys (here ← in case you want to hear it)

 

[locked*n*loaded]

This world has never had a place in it for me, at least it has never shown one that I can recognize. Circumstances over the past few years have solidified that for me. There's no point in just going through the motions every day and merely existing, which is all I'm doing.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

These are my feelings exactly.

Even when I'm not depressed or anxious, even when things are good or calm, there is still this lingering feeling of unrest, a quiet longing for the peace of nonexistence.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

I've felt like I've fulfilled my purpose in this life. Thus what is a life without purpose. I just don't belong in this world. It's like someone is telling it's time to go. Well I showed my community what a disgusting, sick, disturbed, freak I am. Some people hate me and some love me, by revealing them to what I actually am.

What is this life that I'm living. Oh yes, my body is jail cell. Because I ctb in a past life.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Yes, I've always felt alienated. When I was a kid, I thought it was some mark of superiority. But I realize it was just a defect, a manifestation of childhood neglect.
Was working with the wrong instruction manual. Reset button please.

 

[ThisIsLife]

Yes and it's weird. I always felt that way but it is amplifying. I question life the second i wake up.

 

[MlKE]

I am extremely unfit for life, I can't automate my daily tasks, everything I do require some amount of attention, if I give it too much or too little I will make the most stupid and unnecessary mistakes, unforgivable, not for how serious they are, but for how easily they should be avoided.
I'm also completely socially inept and can't place people on a scale of acquaintances to strangers to even relatives. My mind goes blank as soon as someone tries to talk to me and I begin to ramble or barely say anything at all. Same if I try to start a conversation, either I stumble immediately or begin rambling way beyond the point of anyone caring, if I make myself understandable in the first place. Worst is I get so tired from anything. I'm so tired all the time.
My mind is foggy and my body is constantly sore. I think I am just oversensitive because I am in decent shape and have no injuries aside from bruises and some cuts inflicted by my own clumsiness and lack of attention. I can't help being stressed even when I don't have to work for a few days. Soon enough I have to go back. Then I have to be exhausted when I get home from work. Then get up the next day still sore and tired and repeat everything. There is no sense in continuing to so this. I am barely functional enough to do simple tasks and work but nothing else that might motivate someone to sustain themselves through those tasks. I'm just slowly getting older and more bitter for no use.

 

[Scythe]

Ye, relatable, I don't know why but I was always the odd one's out in real life. Evem online, there's always the feeling that I'm not important. I also just don't understand why people do the things they do.

 

[HybridSpectre]

For long I've felt like I took the backseat in my life and someone else was driving it. I once had big plans for life, until I realised that life is just unfair, that all my desires reduced to ashes. Everyday walking in the streets or going to class in university I feel nothing. Emotional numbness has been a hallmark of my life for several years that this life has become an extreme burden that I need to be rid of. I see other people living life all high and mighty, full of happiness but I never understand it. I really have no friends and struggle to maintain a simple conversation irl. Feels like I'm an alien in this world.

 

[stermc]

Yes.
Big souls don't fit in small places such as this world and society.

 

[sulli]

yup. there's no place for me here

 

[Sargasso]

I would be perfect as a pawn of war hundreds if not just dozens of years ago, back when people like me were forced to die for other's causes. People such as myself are not made to exist in this world as anything but that.

 

[SomethingsOff]

I don't feel as if i was meant to be here. I've always felt misplaced and wrong

 

[expired_dreams]

All the time.

 

[LocalAngel]

Daily, yeah... it's no wonder i want out so badly when I'm such a minority, an outcast in regular society...

 

[asleepsomewhere]

This is exactly how I fee

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I was doomed from the start.

 

[doom123]

If I have a destiny, it's definitely to die by suicide.