BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
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It always gets worse when the depression becomes moderate/severe. I don't recognize myself at all, or friends, family, pets...
Sorry about that, I edited my title so it makes more sense. I know how you feel and it really sucks. Ugh.I don't really know what you mean by "fake" but yes I do feel detached from people. I also don't really feel like I'm a person either, I feel like there's something indescribable about me that makes me awful and alien.
Even if we can't remember the past lol. You're right.I do not feel fake.. What I have done is detached/dissociated from much of the past. But it is always there. It is a part of us.
Yup been going through it for 2 years really want to ctb at this moment. Its from ptsd its called derealization/depersonalization. The amount of money or things I would do to get rid of this shit you have know fucking idea. People who have this deserve to ctb im sorry and should never be denied euthanasia. I dont even know if its due to brain damage, seizures, or fucking what. It feels like fucking dementia but yes im so glad i found someone who has the same thing as me.It always gets worse when the depression becomes moderate/severe. I don't recognize myself at all, or friends, family, pets...
It always gets worse when the depression becomes moderate/severe. I don't recognize myself at all, or friends, family, pets...
its a coping mechanism, designed to help you cope with this horrible reality...^^Yup been going through it for 2 years really want to ctb at this moment. Its from ptsd its called derealization/depersonalization. The amount of money or things I would do to get rid of this shit you have know fucking idea. People who have this deserve to ctb im sorry and should never be denied euthanasia. I dont even know if its due to brain damage, seizures, or fucking what. It feels like fucking dementia but yes im so glad i found someone who has the same thing as me.
Well it can go fuck itself...same here, Depersonalization / Derealisation are horrible, interesting, you say when you are feeling low it gets worse, its the same for me!
its a coping mechanism, designed to help you cope with this horrible reality...^^
Yup thats what I literally have right now to this day. Mine never went away. I've been under extreme stress anxiet and neglect i have cptsd. And someone on here that went to dignitas to have assisted s said therapy cant even fix it...the brain is damaged...and so even they accepted him for that condition cus they know how fucked up it is.I don't feel like that right now, and thankfully haven't experienced the sensation you describe in many years.
But I lived with the feeling that "everything was unreal" when I was very ill. I had intense anxiety and suffered from excruciating physical pain which sent my body and mind into some sort of shock. That state of shock lasted for many months.
It's a dreadul and scary feeling - now when I think of it, I would say the scariest in my life.
I remember how weird, how strange and unnatural it felt to be touching things, or look at things, or eat, or listen to people - hard to put into words.
Yup thats what I literally have right now to this day. Mine never went away. I've been under extreme stress anxiet and neglect i have cptsd. And someone on here that went to dignitas to have assisted s said therapy cant even fix it...the brain is damaged...and so even they accepted him for that condition cus they know how fucked up it is.
No, but I was like that when on high levels of Prozac. I had to sit in the car at lunch and try and convince myself that other people were real and it wasn't acceptable to smack them in the face when they annoyed me.
Not taking that drug again!