StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
Have this bad habit of buying things that I don't really need them but it doesn't really makes me happy long enough either.

Do anyone can stop buying things even though it doesn't make you feel happy at all?
 
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Hexen

Hexen

Student
Aug 12, 2019
135
Nothing these days to be honest. I feel like my nervous system is fried. Sometimes I see some new game I might be interested in but I play through it and I am back where I was. Doesn't help that this was my last year at college and am going home and can't find job. I am not looking forward to that shit.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I buy tobacco, drinks, maybe a little food and a variety of poisons. Once all the post arrives, I'll have a variety of four poisons to choose from or combine to my heart's content.
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
Before I was suicidal, I spent a lot of money on hoarding PC games, movies and books over the years so that when I wasn't a depressed mess I'd have a ton to do. Since I had become suicidal, I realized that all of that money was wasted.
 
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H2H2

Specialist
May 31, 2019
320
Constantly trying to feel something buying things I found joy in in the past. I buy them, not even open the box, and then I try to sell them online. Most of the time I give up because I get ridiculous offers. They dont have a personal interest in what Im selling, they look like resellers who need to take into consideration their own margin. Other times I think they are people who are browsing listings for the dopamine of scoring bargains.
 
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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
Nothing these days to be honest. I feel like my nervous system is fried. Sometimes I see some new game I might be interested in but I play through it and I am back where I was. Doesn't help that this was my last year at college and am going home and can't find job. I am not looking forward to that shit.
Same here. I am not looking forward to graduation either. It is scary to even think about it.
 
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c824767

Specialist
Sep 2, 2019
358
I buy things for my ctb
 
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JulienSorel

JulienSorel

Member
Aug 28, 2019
68
My closet is an artistic endeavor.

Or that's what I tell myself as I horde more clothes.
 
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pole

Global Mod
Sep 18, 2018
1,385
I spend A TON of money on clothes and shoes, even ones i know im probably not gonna wear. i just get this lime euphoric feeling, like temporary happiness in spoiling myself for just that one second.

perhaps its just the feeling of wanting something, and in clothes and shoes, feeling this happiness because i want something and can have this somthing that i want just like that. me not being able to retrieve happiness in other ways, although i really really want to be happy and such, is probably why i spend money on things i want, just cause i can have it.
 
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Alchemist

Alchemist

Warlock
Apr 3, 2019
709
Yeah, I keep buying games, just to have an excuse to keep going.
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
I am constantly buying things lately. Stupid things, useful things, just... things. I always think it'll make me feel better, but it never does. I like the anticipation of the packages arriving, but once they're here, I can barely be bothered to open them.

Right now I'm on this bizarre home improvement kick. It makes no sense, because I'm pretty sure I won't be living much longer. But I keep buying new new things for the house, upgrading lighting, rugs, etc. I keep fairly current on things I collect, and even though I'm not ever going to touch them, books, movies, and video games. All these things that have no purpose since I'm just waiting to ctb.

I guess I keep hoping I'll wake up and suddenly not be suicidal anymore or something. It's not exactly hope, just... I have no clue. My fucked up brain misfiring. Habit, maybe? Whatever, I can't seem to stop. All I really know is my best friend is going to inherit a lot of cool things.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Let alone buy anything, I feel guilty when my friends talk about buying tickets to come to me. Actually one of them knows they may not be in time.
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
Let alone buy anything, I feel guilty when my friends talk about buying tickets to come to me. Actually one of them knows they may not be in time.
I have a similar problem. A few old friends have announced they want to buy me tickets to visit them in the future. And my parents beg me to travel to them. I play along, but the reality is that according to my current plan, I'll be long gone by the time they want to do this. I feel so deceitful and awful. So much guilt.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I have a similar problem. A few old friends have announced they want to buy me tickets to visit them in the future. And my parents beg me to travel to them. I play along, but the reality is that according to my current plan, I'll be long gone by the time they want to do this. I feel so deceitful and awful. So much guilt.

If only we did not have to hide our plans...
 
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clownangel

clownangel

Student
Sep 25, 2019
122
The past few months I've been buying and returning things realizing I don't need them/I wasn't happy. Wether it's some shoes or most recently a "fancy" computer.

Main thing I can buy and actually keep is food and art supplies - past that I can't even justify treating myself for more than $5 anymore but I do go nuts on silly impulse purchases like a new snack or something.
 
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peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
Yes. There is a high associated with buying new things. I've wasted a lot of fun a lot of money on electronics that I never use because it gives me a hit of dopamine.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
When I'm in mania I spend money on designer bags and heels I'll never wear!
I have asked to be buried in them though!
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,919
Have this bad habit of buying things that I don't really need them but it doesn't really makes me happy long enough either.

Do anyone can stop buying things even though it doesn't make you feel happy at all?
Retail therapy my friend. I understand. That's why I'm trying to stick to things that I know I need or will use instead of little luxuries. It all adds up so fast.
 
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