Venting Does anybody relate to never wanting to achieve anything in life?

[ijustwishtodie]

This isn't a case about wanting to achieve anything but failing to do so. This is more so a case about not having the desire or passion to achieve anything at all. I just can't relate to those who want to achieve anything. I remember back at school when people were talking about achieving dreams and pursuing passion but, whenever I heard that, I remember feeling exasperated at their almost robotic like preaching as I just never desired to do anything to begin with. I hate at how people still say these things to this day.

I don't get as to why saying that I don't want to achieve or do anything in life is not a valid answer socially. Think about it, we've never asked to be born, we were thrust into this world against our consent. Why should we be expected to have passions and enjoyment in life when we never asked to be here? Whether people go on to develop passions and interests in life doesn't change that they were here against their will to begin with.

Ever since day 1, I've always craved and praised me being in inertia. I never really wanted to do anything and I still don't. This is why I love the idea of death as, in death, I can be in complete inertia as there's no me. I just never desired anything in life to begin with.

It's pure misery me being alive for no reason. I don't even want to do anything in life to begin with so why should I be forced to be alive? This sucks... life sucks. I have never ever wanted to do anything in life

Does anybody else relate?

 

[dinosavr]

I can relate, definitely. I never wanted to do something just for the achievement, it just feels super unnecessary.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I can relate, definitely. I never wanted to do something just for the achievement, it just feels super unnecessary.

Exactly. It feels unnecessary and it's also just exhausting too. Achievements aren't something that I've ever craved. I've done well academically but I never cared nor felt proud of it. Instead I just wished that I didn't have to go through academics to begin with. Life is way too exhausting and just isn't meant for me

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes and in my case I've certainly only ever wished for eternal nothingness, I see human existence as so futile and undesirable, under no circumstances would I ever want to exist, I only find comfort in death, I'm only meant for non-existence. I personally don't understand why anyone would want to exist, I always see it as better to never exist at all, simply being conscious and aware is tiring to me.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes and in my case I've certainly only ever wished for eternal nothingness, I see human existence as so futile and undesirable, under no circumstances would I ever want to exist, I only find comfort in death, I'm only meant for non-existence. I personally don't understand why anyone would want to exist, I always see it as better to never exist at all, simply being conscious and aware is tiring to me.

Same here. I've always only wished for permanent non existence too. I find that to be peaceful. I'm also only meant for non existence. There isn't anything that I want to do in life and there never was anything that I wanted to do in life. When I'm dead, I'll be at peace

 

[archiveofpain]

Yeah, it doesn't help that the older you get the more unwanted responsabilities you will get piled up on you. Life is spent doing boring repetitive tasks by becoming a wage slave, achieving things that in the grand scheme of things don't matter especially if you never cared about accomplish anything and is just generally more trouble than it's worth for. It's just very tiring so I feel you

 

[Arachno]

Kind of, I do wish I there was at least something I could achieve in life, but I have literally no drive to do so. I don't really have any major life achievement goals right now, other than killing myself. I don't see much future for myself.

 

[cowboypants]

I have been like that from an early age. I wasn't built for the academic pressure. I really couldn't sit myself and study thanks to my ADHD. although I get hyperfocused and do stuff for days and days it's not like what other people do. I can't study 3-4 years wheny interest shifts every season.

Life itself feels meaningless without relationships and good friendships and a purpose in life. The fux am I alive for?

 

[derpyderpins]

While I have a voice screaming in me to do something with my life, I think would be most happy sipping coffee on a rocking chair on my deck like my grandfather did through retirement. (I'd want to screen in the deck tho cuz fuck nature.) So while I'm not the same, I can understand it and don't begrudge you.

 

[Agon321]

Yes and no.

I would like to achieve a lot in life, but I am too stupid and lazy. Additionally, my current mental health issues don't help my situation.

No matter what I do in life, I will always feel hungry.

 

[TheLastBoyOnEarth]

In my case, it's the opposite. I was a promising student and wanted to achieve so much but then chronic pain came and ruined everything.

 

[PathtoDie]

I can totally relate to what you've said. I do have the desire to achieve something great but my laziness won't allow anything even remotely great to happen. It's been like that since I was born. But these days I've lost that desire as well. I want nothing to do with life. I just want to stop existing. Non-existence sounds perfect for a lazy guy like me... I feel like I wasn't meant to be lazy, but at the same time feel like I wasn't meant to exist either...

 

[AmberianDawn]

When i was younger i have desires, achive some things and when i gotted i wasnt happy anyway... so currently i have no desire, only to have a paceful death

 

[babyharpseal]

i dont have any real goals. ive never had any interest in any kind of job. id happily just work in retail if 1) the pay was livable 2) u got treated as an actual human instead of a punching bag for every customer n manager. anddd 3) it wasnt 40 fucking hours a week there is literally not a single thing that can be enjoyable for that long. u couldnt get me to play video games for 40hrs a week

in terms of personal life i dont have goals either. i dont want to travel anywhere, its too tiring n expensive n theres nothing i want to see. i used to make art, but i dont want to post it publically or make money. its too soul-crushing to deal w public perception since 90% of ppl dont gaf abt ur work. i just wanted to draw for fun n to communicate ideas to my 2 friends

and thats all. ive never had a single grand goal in life. i dont even try to do projects that take more than a day, bc i have an 100% rate of abandoning them. the nature of living things is to just live one day at a time so its not unnatural to not give a fuck outside of that

 

[etherealspring]

yea ive often gotten scolded for not having any ambition at all. but i genuinely just don't care and i have no desire to achieve "great things." i often feel like a failure because of it, but my lack of will to do anything outweighs that

 

[Dark Window]

I just want to do what I want and what matters to me, which may sometimes involve achieving something, but it's the end result that matters, not the fact that I achieved anything.