Discussion does anybody else like being depressed

[marksofdespair]

At times I feel kind of proud of my depression. I like being broken and fucked in the head; it makes me who I am. I feel like I express myself through my depression with my fashion sense, my music taste, my humor, my style and interests. I've been depressed so long it's like a personality trait at this point. Sometimes, I like crying and thinking about how much I'm suffering. That I'm a horrible person; I deserve this pain since I ruined my own life. I almost want to be this way forever and never heal.

I just know that realistically, that is not a feasible option at all. I'm extremely depressed and manic, I can't stay chaotic, crazy, and unmedicated forever without having an extreme desire to commit suicide.


Of course, sometimes I have just wished I could be normal and happy like others.

 

[perishsong]

I've been depressed so long it's like a personality trait at this point.

I can relate a lot. It's embedded in the very core of who I am. It's scary to imagine life without depression and simultaneously it's an infinitely dense burden. I'm sorry for all the suffering your depression inflicted upon you.

 

[Proceed]

For a long time I used to be like this.

 

[unluckysadness]

It reminds me Harold in the movie "Harold & Maude". Great movie

 

[twistedtransistor47]

I get it. I've been depressed for so long now being depressed is almost comforting. It's like I'm scared to be happy and healthy because I don't know what it's like. I don't want to lose my "Well if it ever gets too bad I can just kill myself"

 

[somethingisntreal]

There's this twisted comfort in being depressed that I can't quite put into words.

 

[Forveleth]

Hell no. I hate being a non-functional person. Depression has stolen so much from me over the decades. It is why I harbor so much anger towards my parents who did absolutely nothing to get me help when I told them I was suicidal as a teen and very obviously had problems. I could have had such a good life.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Depression to me feels like a monster that is always following you and it just waits for the best moment in which you're the most vulnerable and then it'll attack you. Its evil and a torture. Depression makes the same walking route for you 1000x more difficult than it'd be for a healthy person

 

[U. A.]

Do you like being depressed? It doesn't really sound like it from the actual post.

 

[kuroshimi]

I guess at some point you get used to it.
As far as I can remember, I have always been depressed. It seems like it's just a part of who am I.

 

[Delusion]

I only like being depressed when I'm lethargic and bedrotting. Trying to function outside of that isn't fun.

 

[Gangrel]

i'm just so used to it that not being depressed feels alien to me