socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
275
I recently got friends for the first time in a long time, there all online, but I think these are the best friendships I've ever had. Yet sometimes I'm stressed and want to delete discord and never talk to them again. Of course if I did that I would feel super guilty, but I normally don't want to do that. It gets even crazier though because sometimes I want to go out and make new friends or talk to other people. So I don't know can any one else relate to this.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
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I recently got friends for the first time in a long time, there all online, but I think these are the best friendships I've ever had. Yet sometimes I'm stressed and want to delete discord and never talk to them again. Of course if I did that I would feel super guilty, but I normally don't want to do that. It gets even crazier though because sometimes I want to go out and make new friends or talk to other people. So I don't know can any one else relate to this.
Yes, sometimes I want to do that. I did that and came back but they didn't understand and the relationship was damaged. I like being alone I haven't had friends in about over a year.
 
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so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
I've done this so many times. one guy was on the same thought process as me and made a good friend, but I panic when people get close since an abusive relationship so just talking to him I got pretty suicidal again. a few days after deleting my account I was much happier.

so I like here because with forums it's less one-on-one and the panic doesn't overcome.
 
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socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
275
I've done this so many times. one guy was on the same thought process as me and made a good friend, but I panic when people get close since an abusive relationship so just talking to him I got pretty suicidal again. a few days after deleting my account I was much happier.

so I like here because with forums it's less one-on-one and the panic doesn't overcome.
I'm sorry to hear about your past abuse.
 
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Toobrokentofix

Toobrokentofix

Experienced
Jul 7, 2020
244
I have a need for connection because I feel deeply alone and I want to seek out friends but I also have a fear of being honest about how dark my thoughts can be and I don't want to burden people with me and all my fucked upness. I also alwaysfeel anxious that people are all rolling their eyes at me and think I'm think I'm a loser and I hate feeling rejected. It's also a worry that the closer I get to people the harder it will be when I ctb. Relationships are complicated
 
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I_love_to_bake

I_love_to_bake

Student
Feb 27, 2020
167
Yeah... friendships are definitely stressful. I'm isolated pretty much completely at this point. The avoidance and anxiety go together. Sometimes taking things out of your life like this is really just trading anxiety for depression.
Take care of yourselves...
 
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socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
275
Yeah... friendships are definitely stressful. I'm isolated pretty much completely at this point. The avoidance and anxiety go together. Sometimes taking things out of your life like this is really just trading anxiety for depression.
Take care of yourselves...
Yeah, I guess it is a trade from anxiety to depression. Only problem is I didn't feel lonely before I made my new friends.
 
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Distopic

Distopic

Member
Jul 27, 2020
7
A year ago I had many friends online, they were nice and I felt well with them, but at some point I started feeling overhelmed. I started to talk with them only for not losing them while at the same time I was wondering if I would feel more free without them. I finally deleted the app I was using without saying goodbye to anyone. I never felt remorse after doing that, because I believe It was a good decision.



I have another friends "in real life" that sometimes makes me feel stressed. But I'm not willing to get rid of them, I know that is possible that I won't find people like them again.



Friends are important, but if they don't make you feel better than when you are alone, maybe it's better to leave them.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I have quite a few friends and sometimes, I want to get rid of all of them so it would be easier to ctb once and for all.
 
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Deleted member 18655

Enlightened
Jun 4, 2020
1,422
I didn't have any before last July. I've successfully either worn them out, pissed them off or pushed them all away.
 
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Ybother

Ybother

Life is a lemon and I want my money back.
Jul 23, 2020
42
I recently got friends for the first time in a long time, there all online, but I think these are the best friendships I've ever had. Yet sometimes I'm stressed and want to delete discord and never talk to them again. Of course if I did that I would feel super guilty, but I normally don't want to do that. It gets even crazier though because sometimes I want to go out and make new friends or talk to other people. So I don't know can any one else relate to this.
If I had friends to get rid of. I had one good friend that I went through middle and high school, but I scared her away with my depressing bullshit. I'm a toxic person, so I wouldn't recommend anyone befriend me. I'm waiting for my boyfriend to let me go. I love him but i know my emotional immaturity can be super annoying. I have been trying to undo the damage, but it's too late. Everybody knows he deserves better. I cut people off to protect them. Besides, what the fuck am I going to talk about? Which Sim got married today? I have nothing interesting going on in my life right now. I don't even take care of myself anymore.
 
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runningonempty

Member
Jul 16, 2020
14
If these are people who

  • know and accept all your quirks
  • you can talk about anything with
  • you can confide in and count on
  • make your life even a little bit more bearable
  • made you smile when you were sad and empty
  • saved your life
  • feel secure and safe with
  • never have to worry about their love towards you
then you will be losing the most valuable thing in your life
 
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alexit

Mage
Jun 3, 2020
509
I push people away so that I have no friends. for me, it's not hard. I don't feel loneliness.
 
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CuddleHug

CuddleHug

Back, but with less enthusiasm. Hugs~
Feb 22, 2020
259
I know I'm going to lose them eventually anyway, so I prefer to do it on purpose. Usually, I don't even let people in to begin with. They'll just get hurt or feel burdened with my deep, dark shit.

There are still a few friends that I can't bring myself to do that to, the ones I've opened up most to. They will think I've killed myself and it'll crush them. Trying not to think about what to do when I CTB, if I ever get to that point again.

Here's a hug from a non-friend :hug:
 
throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
Go out and talk to people if you can. Internet friends are all fake friends. I speak from years of experience man. I got hurt so many times. Don't let it get to you. At the end of the day we're all just letters on a screen. What's real is out there.
 
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Belit667

Belit667

Experienced
Aug 2, 2020
247
Wow, I have no friends at all, real life or online. Never had. Sure, dump them.
 

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