Feeding Pigeons
Warlock
- Aug 5, 2021
- 776
So to give a brief explanation of myself and the situation, I've been suicidal my whole life, nothing has worked, and finally I found a ketamine clinic that I could barely afford. I've gone here once so far, and my next appointment is tomorrow. However, before seeing the doctor the woman at the front desk asked I fill out a survey on my phone called OutcomeMD (first result on search engines if you look it up), this survey's first question was am I or have I ever been suicidal. Now, right off the bat I told the woman at the front desk that I was uncomfortable with filling out this survey, she asked why, I said I was uncomfortable, and she pressed the matter. I ended up filling false answers in just to complete it and move on.
I don't like this, at all. They told me to do it because answering the questions establishes a "baseline", but I don't believe this. A quote directly from OutcomeMD's website:
"Fully customizable, easy-to-understand, authenticated reports can be generated from the OutcomeMD Dashboard to highlight your great work and help negotiate better contracts with payers."
The woman at the front desk, even though I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING about having a fear of other people reading my results, offered up the information that "The results are not going anywhere". Now, truthfully my concern with answering the questions honestly was that I've learnt the hard way through experiences that telling someone youre suicidal is the fastest way to get them to deny you treatment. I don't like lying, but I feel like I'm forced to with this.
Either way, I don't want to do this survey. I intend to fill the survey out with lies again and when I actually meet the doctor face-to-face again, to tell him I am not comfortable with doing the survey. If he gives me the reason of wanting to establish a baseline, I could answer back that there is nothing wrong with establishing a baseline face-to-face each session, we are going to do that regardless, rendering the app survey useless.
I'm afraid to outright decline doing the survey because I'm worried he would deny me treatment if I were to say that. I know I could just lie on the survey and everything would go accordingly, but it really bothers me on a deep level to lie like that. I was wondering what would you guys do in my situation?
I don't like this, at all. They told me to do it because answering the questions establishes a "baseline", but I don't believe this. A quote directly from OutcomeMD's website:
"Fully customizable, easy-to-understand, authenticated reports can be generated from the OutcomeMD Dashboard to highlight your great work and help negotiate better contracts with payers."
The woman at the front desk, even though I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING about having a fear of other people reading my results, offered up the information that "The results are not going anywhere". Now, truthfully my concern with answering the questions honestly was that I've learnt the hard way through experiences that telling someone youre suicidal is the fastest way to get them to deny you treatment. I don't like lying, but I feel like I'm forced to with this.
Either way, I don't want to do this survey. I intend to fill the survey out with lies again and when I actually meet the doctor face-to-face again, to tell him I am not comfortable with doing the survey. If he gives me the reason of wanting to establish a baseline, I could answer back that there is nothing wrong with establishing a baseline face-to-face each session, we are going to do that regardless, rendering the app survey useless.
I'm afraid to outright decline doing the survey because I'm worried he would deny me treatment if I were to say that. I know I could just lie on the survey and everything would go accordingly, but it really bothers me on a deep level to lie like that. I was wondering what would you guys do in my situation?