Do you write a suicide letter?

[HopingOnaMiracle]

Hey everyone. Short question here. Do you plan to write a suicide note? And what would you write?

 

[Olek Messier 87]

I'm currently writing two, one for my wife, and another one for my family. The goal is to say goodbye, briefly explaining the reasons for this act (it has to be relevant without being too melodramatic or pathetic), while eradicating in advance any possible irrational guilt on their part. I will also add to this letter some logistical details to be observed.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

If/when I attempt to CTB again, I would not leave a note. They'll know why from the note I left on my last attempt. My mother told me that note was beautifully written lol. But she shared it with a few people we are close to which I am half mad about and half OK with the ones she let read it because at least they know how I felt too.

 

[offbalance]

Yes but only to a select couple people. Not gonna leave it to others cuz they wouldn't understand anyway. A suicide note shaming them for traumatizing me would likely not do too much good, cuz shame is probably why they are who they are in the first place. So maybe silence is louder in this case. But idk. If I left something really poignant, but not shaming, maybe that would cause them to rethink themselves somewhat.

But to the ones that I am gonna leave the note to for sure, it's just me comforting them telling them there's nothing they could have done, as well as giving my personal reasons for my decision. As well as comforting them that they'll hear from me in the possible afterlife

 

[AflacDuck]

Well depending on how ya wanna go about it. You could write it on paper, you could shoot a video and make it obvious, or if its something like the use of a firearm, people wont approach you, and you could probably traumatize people by doing it right in front of them. That image will give them severe ptsd for the rest of their lives.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd write one to explain that non-existence is all I wished for and that I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, painful and torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd write about how existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me and how in my case ceasing to exist would be the only peace.

 

[iloveloving]

I plan to CTB in a hotel room. I don't want an innocent person walking on me dead, so the only note I plan to write is the one outside the bathroom door.

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

I don't know if I'd write a letter. I want to die and my close relatives know about my situation

 

[Chocomel]

Most of my family member know my suffering too so I never bother to write a note. Though it is worth considering the pain they need to go through when other people ask what happened with me. So I actually write it, not as a note, rather as a book. But then I change my mind and delete the book file

 

[yxmux]

Only if it prolongs their suffering.

 

[justkatie]

I would but just to tell people that it's nothing to do with them and there's nothing they could possibly have done to change my mind.

I have put off ending it because I know people I know would blame themselves for what happened to me and I can't deal with that.

I would rather suffer than see someone else suffer thinking they could have helped when the reality is, they couldn't.

 

[dogtired]

I'm currently writing two, one for my wife, and another one for my family. The goal is to say goodbye, briefly explaining the reasons for this act (it has to be relevant without being too melodramatic or pathetic), while eradicating in advance any possible irrational guilt on their part. I will also add to this letter some logistical details to be observed.

I like this approach. I'm struggling with the drafts of mine - one to my mum and another to everyone else collectively, explaining my reasons which many of my friends won't know and will incorrectly attribute to mental illness otherwise.

It's important to me that people know the whole context of my decision, but as you said I don't want it to be melodramatic so I'm struggling to get the tone right and keep it brief while still covering everything. Also preventing irrational guilt is a huuuge driver of my note to my mum, as well as logistical/practical considerations. How long roughly will yours be?

 

[Olek Messier 87]

I like this approach. I'm struggling with the drafts of mine - one to my mum and another to everyone else collectively, explaining my reasons which many of my friends won't know and will incorrectly attribute to mental illness otherwise.

It's important to me that people know the whole context of my decision, but as you said I don't want it to be melodramatic so I'm struggling to get the tone right and keep it brief while still covering everything. Also preventing irrational guilt is a huuuge driver of my note to my mum, as well as logistical/practical considerations. How long roughly will yours be?

Indeed, I think it's important for the close ones to understand why, if you are able to articulate it, which is not always the case (It can be difficult to describe what has all the trappings of a psychosis), it would probably help them to accept in the long term. Hopefully it will be enough to not disturb them too much for too long.
I think a page and a half each should do the job for me.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Yeah, probably one long one (maybe 3000-5000 words), and multiple short one's likely only a page or two each.

 

[seppuku404]

Instead of doing that I'd probably write a message to some people thanking them for the good times. and maybe some small explanation like "I see no reason to keep going on".
Nice higurashi pfp btw, though I prefer to think the 2 new seasons don't exist.

 

[lnlybnny]

Never explain, never complain... Nah I'm just unmotivated to even do this too lol

 

[Ironborn]

No I like to keep my enemies guessing, never let them know my next move.

 

[TiredKitty]

I don't understand not wanting to risk hurting someone's feeling within a note. If someone contributed to the choice I made, I'd want them to fully understand their involvement. Not be outright mean or call them names, but I wouldn't pull any punches either. Just lay out the entire truth of the situation. Purely factual. Hell, maybe even offer some advice on how they can improve as people

 

[VengoEnPaz]

Yes I would like to explain why I did it to my family.

 

[BrownNoise]

I would thank my dad and sister for always believing in me and for helping me turn my life around. I would thank them for being the only people to not turn their back on me when I was 20 and fighting 2 class X felonies and 10 misdemeanors.

I would thank my dad for getting me clean from heroin and driving me back and forth weekly to a Suboxone clinic, and to court ordered counseling. Not to mention driving me 3 hours round trip to court once a month or so for about 11 months.

I would thank my sister for all the academic and life help she gave me. I would thank my dad for helping fund my bachelors degree, and sorry he won't see me finish my masters degree.

I would likely conclude with stressing how it is absolutely NOT their fault in any way.

Those are the major points off the top of my head. Obviously there would be more when finished.

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

They already know how I got here, and if I were honest about my feelings from some of the things that happened or the medical decisions made for me that ruined me, it would hurt the feelings of the people I love.

If I write a long letter they'll go back and reread it over and over, so I'll probably try to write something short, telling them I love them, to not blame themselves, and to thank them for the time that I spent alive with them.

 

[IkaXo]

I don't find it necessary in my case, I don't have anything of value to leave.

 

[shironeko]

No. Nothing to share. Nothing to talk. No one cares and I have nothing left. So I don't expect anyone to understand my pain.

 

[ringo99]

I have nothing left to say. The only thing I'll leave behind on my desk are my last will and testament, my original life insurance policy document and instructions on how to access my finances

 

[sinivihrea]

yeah, one for my partner, one for my mom, one in general for close family, and an unofficial will (since i don't have anything worth fighting over except the animals, and i have faith that one of my family members would step up and care for them if my mom couldn't.) maybe burn a CD or playlist or something for my partner, too. or a pre-mortem momento mori locket, it'd fit their goth sensibilities. and timed messages for people I'm not in contact with irl.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think that I would write a suicide letter just so that they know part of the truth. I still debate with myself as to whether I should put in that I'm an ex muslim or not but I'll definitely tell them why I'm suicidal even though they definitely won't understand due to being insanely pro life. My role in writing the suicide letter is just to state the truth, however they interpret it is up to them

 

[Just_Another_Person]

Nah, I will take my "secret" to the grave. I will just schedule an email to be sent to a family member with instructions on what to do (I won't say "I'm dead").

 

[Hanaga]

Wrote like 10 pages on what to do with my property