Do you wish you could see how people react to your death?

[DyingToDie123]

I don't believe in any sort of afterlife but it kills me (no pun intended) to think that I won't get to witness the aftermath of my death.

How about you all?

 

[FuneralCry]

No, all I want is to be forgotten about like I never existed at all, I only wish for permanent non-existence for all eternity.

 

[R_N]

I had enough of seeing myself and others suffering so no.

 

[FlowerBaron]

I feel like there's a lot of hypocrisy when burying someone.
I'd like to see certain people crying at my funeral, just to feel truly loved for a bit, even though it would be a lie.

 

[cardboard_house]

I would be too torn seeing my family mourning me. I already feel guilty enough, my only solace is that I won't feel any of that guilt when I'm dead.

 

[Some place nice]

I would love to see my family's reactions to my dead body and the notes.

 

[princexhhn]

would love to see peoples reactions, and then cease to exist forever i see their reactions and i never have to think about it again. sounds amazing. how often i wish i could see a reaction and die before ive got a spare second to think.

 

[Iris Blue]

Sometimes I think about it now, maybe a few crying here and there and the rest of the people who find out later on who knew me maybe just a sad look and feeling for a minute or two. I'm not enough for it to matter anyways and everyone else has much more important things they have going on.

 

[Ksmиda]

Seeing how others might react is something I wouldn't want to see. When I ctb, I don't want people to know I died, I would like them to think that I went missing or something.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Hell yes, some of them.

 

[Qua]

I actually had a dream that I committed suicide and saw my mom get extremely sad. I felt all that guilt and need to hug her and tell her that I'm sorry and that I'm still here. Even tho I want to disappear, I know that my mom's reaction would be way worse than in my dream so if I ended up dying for whatever reason, I would hate to see the aftermath

 

[deadtomorrow]

People would probably laugh and celebrate, considering my horrible genetics. Same thing for my family, i'm but a burden on them. They wish i was never born because they wished they had a healthy son with a healthy and thriving life. But i'm the complete opposite. I've caught them multiple times saying they wish i had been "born differently"
This is why i kind of am questioning if i want to really ctb, because there are people who WANT to see me dead. And i don't want to please them.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

No, I'll be gone and won't see or hear anything after that but knowing my mom especially, I don't think she'll be mentally the same person ever again, maybe same with my brothers and younger sister but I don't know, too focused on ctb to let any emotions about that creep in

 

[Hotsackage]

some people need a reality check, but i dont wish anyone grief or suffering

 

[SanguineShark]

Yes, I think bc I'm an attention whore and I want to see the impact. Even if it would be extremely sad to see, I just wish to know how people's lives go without me.

 

[poisonousspit]

yes, i think it would be nice to see how people are going on with their lives without me. it might be extremely painful to watch, but i believe it's worth it. i want to see who will be impacted by my death and those who won't be.

 

[abl2023]

Honestly no. I know it would leave an impact on them. Especially my mom, but life is too much for me. I can't live for them and be unhappy for the rest of my life. I need to do this for myself to reach happiness with ending my suffering.

 

[Arcitect]

I would be too torn seeing my family mourning me. I already feel guilty enough, my only solace is that I won't feel any of that guilt when I'm dead.

I have that same guilt, that they'll be sad when I go. It helps me to remember that they'll get over it eventually. People always do.