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tanglyy

tanglyy

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Jul 21, 2021
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i'm struggling to come to terms with the fact that not even death would make my life meaningful.

is there an innate human need to be remembered? the thought of being forgotten makes me sick but living forever in people's memories feels even worse.

is it delusional to believe that this pain could all be working towards something greater? i don't want others to feel alone, but the truth is that we are all truly alone. everyone in this world is fending for themselves, although some have convinced themselves otherwise. am i selfish for wanting to be honest about that?

i don't know what i need. what do you need?
 
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summers

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Nov 4, 2020
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If you ascribe to the philosophy of nihilism, you understand that you are not important or unique. That everything you do is for yourself. I find this freeing as I don't really care what others think about me, and it wouldn't have made a difference if I never existed. So I live for the here and now, live a life that makes me happy, and never worry about what happens when I'm gone.
 
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tanglyy

tanglyy

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Jul 21, 2021
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i've always had this preconceived notion that nihilists were just total jerks but i think i've ended up coming to the same conclusion that indeed nothing really matters. there were (probably still are) societies who didn't even acknowledge the concept of "your purpose in life" because it seemed absurd to them. i really identify with that now.

thank you for your reply
If you ascribe to the philosophy of nihilism, you understand that you are not important or unique. That everything you do is for yourself. I find this freeing as I don't really care what others think about me, and it wouldn't have made a difference if I never existed. So I live for the here and now, live a life that makes me happy, and never worry about what happens when I'm gone.
i haven't used this site in a while, forgive me, my reply is above. lol
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,806
If you ascribe to the philosophy of nihilism, you understand that you are not important or unique. That everything you do is for yourself. I find this freeing as I don't really care what others think about me, and it wouldn't have made a difference if I never existed. So I live for the here and now, live a life that makes me happy, and never worry about what happens when I'm gone.
Couldn't agree more.

Being forgotten doesn't bother me.
 
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tanglyy

tanglyy

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Jul 21, 2021
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Couldn't agree more.

Being forgotten doesn't bother me.
i do feel pretty silly for wanting to be remembered at all- what would i be remembered for exactly? there's billions of people who have died quietly and the world moved on. we'll never know their names. it's almost guaranteed i'm part of that crowd, it's pretty bizarre to think otherwise
 
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summers

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Nov 4, 2020
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i do feel pretty silly for wanting to be remembered at all- what would i be remembered for exactly? there's billions of people who have died quietly and the world moved on. we'll never know their names. it's almost guaranteed i'm part of that crowd, it's pretty bizarre to think otherwise
There are literally trillions (maybe even quadrillions) of stars that no longer exist. If only a tiny portion of them had planets with intelligent life on them, imagine how many sentient beings have come and gone in this universe. And yet, if not a single one ever existed, we would be in the exact same place we are today.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
I just want to be forgotten and be free from the suffering of this world.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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living forever in people's memories feels even worse.
Do you think Cleopatra & Shakespeare feel bad about "living in our memories"? They kind of don't exist anymore :))
 
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tanglyy

tanglyy

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Jul 21, 2021
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Do you think Cleopatra & Shakespeare feel bad about "living in our memories"? They kind of don't exist anymore :))
i guess not, but their "legacies" have lasted more years than their actual lifetimes, which i think is interesting...

but yeah, i suppose it all doesn't matter. but that's no fun :P
 
wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,827
I just want to die
 
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patheticpartner

Student
May 4, 2020
100
I can't even begin to formulate opinions/answers to the questions you pose in your post because I'm too braindead. I would like to just die now. Maybe relive, if I could live as a different person.
 
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Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
754
Whichever you believe is stronger: if you think the pain you're going through is leading you to something greater or If you think its all for naught, its for you to tell. I only wish the choice you chose was whats the best for you.

On a lightet note, I pray for isekai. :))
 
hʚll

hʚll

not real.
Jun 18, 2021
467
i need a time machine. to make it like nothing ever existed.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
I want to have never existed in the first place, but since that isn't an option, I'll die.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
I want to relive and make the right choices. Right now, I want to die, because there is no going back.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Death is the only thing that I want. I do not want to experience anything ever again, I just want to be nothing. In an ideal world, I would completely disappear and nobody would remember me.
 
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