Do you think you'll cry the day of?

[Ambivalent1]

I plan to buy my favorite meal before the long drive, but I don't know if the meal would be pleasurable knowing what would soon follow.

 

[Rocinante]

i won't. No loss to the world

 

[leftdreaming]

I probably will. SI is a bitch.

 

[woh6]

I don't see why I would. I'll already be at peace with my decision at that point.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I don't see why I would. I'll already be at peace with my decision at that point.

How do you reach that beyond-sad state?

 

[woh6]

How do you reach that beyond-sad state?

I wouldn't say 'sad'.. nor is there a way to 'reach' it. It just happens. You're the one making the decision, so if you're 100% sure I don't see why it would make you sad.
I don't like being alive, I've wanted ctb for such a long time, I'd finally be at some sort of peace knowing it's gonna end soon. But that's how I view it, crying is okay and everyone reacts differently.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I wouldn't say 'sad'.. nor is there a way to 'reach' it. It just happens. You're the one making the decision, so if you're 100% sure I don't see why it would make you sad.
I don't like being alive, I've wanted ctb for such a long time, I'd finally be at some sort of peace knowing it's gonna end soon. But that's how I view it, crying is okay and everyone reacts differently.

Maybe sadness comes from still having expectations. Expectations are a desire. Desire leads to suffering. It's interesting how much the suicide process aligns with the Buddhist path. One must detach to die in peace.

 

[outrider567]

Well, I get tears in my eyes every day as it is, final day should be no different

 

[offbalance]

Maybe sadness comes from still having expectations. Expectations are a desire. Desire leads to suffering. It's interesting how much the suicide process aligns with the Buddhist path. One must detach to die in peace.

Yeah, that's why I'm trying to desensitize myself to death as much as possible before the day until I don't cry or have sadness anymore. Right now sometimes I'll still think about it or talk about it with someone else and unexpectedly get sad/cry, I'm trying to get that all out of my system before CTB. Of course I still have a shred of hope but yeah idk. Sometimes chemicals in my brain make things more bearable but rationally death seems better nonetheless… idk lol fuck

 

[kwho]

Maybe sadness comes from still having expectations. Expectations are a desire. Desire leads to suffering. It's interesting how much the suicide process aligns with the Buddhist path. One must detach to die in peace.

And it is a fun process. You get to know the furthermost corners of yourself before you let go of yourself! It is wonderful.

On a indirectly related note - you were complaining about the quality of modern entertainment a while ago. Go watch Severance. You will like it.

 

[Ambivalent1]

And it is a fun process. You get to know the furthermost corners of yourself before you let go of yourself! It is wonderful.

On a indirectly related note - you were complaining about the quality of modern entertainment a while ago. Go watch Severance. You will like it.

Is meditation the pathway? It seems appropriate that one should let go of it all after circumnavigating one's inner universe.

I've seen it. The writer's strike is delaying season 2. That ending was great.

 

[leloyon]

It would be nice if I could cry the day before, but honestly I expect to feel numb on the day.

 

[kwho]

Is meditation the pathway? It seems appropriate that one should let go of it all after circumnavigating one's inner universe.

I've seen it. The writer's strike is delaying season 2. That ending was great.

Meditation also, of course. It gives you distance to observe yourself from.

But of course, you've seen it, hehehe! You basically have all the answers in that show. Just watch it again, meditatively.

Do you want a waffle party or a coffee coaster?

I'll never see the 2nd season, if all goes well, so i don't care. The 1st one was enough. Even just this promo image is mind-blowing

 

[Ambivalent1]

Meditation also, of course. It gives you distance to observe yourself from.

But of course, you've seen it, hehehe! You basically have all the answers in that show. Just watch it again, meditatively.

Do you want a waffle party or a coffee coaster?

I'll never see the 2nd season, if all goes well, so i don't care. The 1st one was enough. Even just this promo image is mind-blowing

Is the answer that it doesn't matter what you choose because any choice is meaningless?

Meditation also, of course. It gives you distance to observe yourself from.

But of course, you've seen it, hehehe! You basically have all the answers in that show. Just watch it again, meditatively.

Do you want a waffle party or a coffee coaster?

I'll never see the 2nd season, if all goes well, so i don't care. The 1st one was enough. Even just this promo image is mind-blowing

Life is like a kind of game. You play a role and interact with other players. Then you die. I'm upset that I don't get to play the game like other people do even though it's meaningless because even though it's meaningless, it's all there is.

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

I think not. When I was a teenager, I cried the first time I tried ctb because I wasn't sure I wanted it. Now I have matured, during the last attempt there was no fear at all and I did not cry. Most likely it will be a conscious choice, and not an emotional one, as in youth.

 

[kwho]

Is the answer that it doesn't matter what you choose because any choice is meaningless?

It's a koan question to illustrate the absurdity of both of these options.

No one in their right mind would actually be motivated by any of the crap they present as "incentives" in the show. The creators just deliberately chose absurd, stupid items to really telegraph the fact.

99% percent of wishes and desires passing through your mind aren't actually real. Or even yours.

 

[The anhedonic one]

No. I will laugh like a madman.

 

[kwho]

Life is like a kind of game. You play a role and interact with other players. Then you die. I'm upset that I don't get to play the game like other people do even though it's meaningless because even though it's meaningless, it's all there is.

Who's playing the game? Forget all about the meaning. Who is it?

Who is playing the game?

Who is reading this now? Who is asking in your mind now if you are supposed to answer the question you are now reading?

And where do you go at night when you are asleep and not dreaming?


And, no you are not. Not to me.

 

[peaceindeath]

Our instinct is to feel sad and loss. But you need to rationally remember how much pain you save yourself from

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had a reliable method all planned out and if I knew that I was close to being permanently gone I would feel so relieved, for me suicide is a positive thing, it's self care as it's the way to prevent all future suffering, it's taking control over my inevitable fate and is freeing myself from this horrible world. Existence is so replusive and unappealing to me, there is nothing sad about being unable to suffer, of course those who no longer exist are the only fortunate ones.

 

[spøgelse]

No. I didn't cry the first nor last time I tried. I haven't had a good cry in a few years.

 

[Thisisme373]

I think not. When I was a teenager, I cried the first time I tried ctb because I wasn't sure I wanted it. Now I have matured, during the last attempt there was no fear at all and I did not cry. Most likely it will be a conscious choice, and not an emotional one, as in youth.

You had no fear on your last attempt? I'd like to not have the fear, I think my main fear is failing, that would be devastating to me.

 

[unnormal9]

Men cry not for themselves, but for their comrades.

 

[Nazzeth]

Yeah, dont think so

 

[Ambivalent1]

Yeah, dont think so

Don't be so flippant. You'll probably sob like a baby the day of.

 

[Challu]

Yes

 

[Message In A Bottle]

Yeah, because I'll be thinking of my family and those who will discover me in such a state. Will my body be beyond recognition? How quickly will I be found? Will animals feast on my flesh? And will my family follow me soon after the grief? All these questions run rampant in my mind, and whenever I start to deeply think about them, I tear up from the severity of it all.

It cuts deep, thinking about all the lives I'll potentially affect. I always thought I was numb—devoid of all emotion—but it turns out I still have some human emotion left in me somewhere in this meat sack of mine.

 

[unnormal9]

I cried today, right now. i dont know its rare, but something just hit me

 

[silent star]

100%, I'm hella sensitive

 

[jazzcat]

I mean I cry everyday so probably, but I think the moment I actually go through with it I'll be calm and I won't cry, otherwise I wouldn't be ready