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Jon Arbuckle

Jon Arbuckle

Aspiring Corpse
Jul 23, 2024
122
I know most people here 'want' to die. but do you think you DESERVE death? I personally do. It's not like I've killed anyone or something like that but I still feel like I've done enough bad things to people I love and am a bad enough person that I do deserve to die.
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

You're gonna carry that weight.
Apr 22, 2024
487
Sounds about right for me.
 
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hellworldprincess

hellworldprincess

death come kind. lay no curse on me.
Jun 29, 2024
90
I deserve the relief after all this shit.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
Whether or not I deserve to die, it would simply be better for the world overall if myself and others like me were to be dead. I know I'm selfish for craving the eternal peace death brings but I'd rather have that than to deal with the consequences of my selfishness in the world of the living.
 
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Cyagangy

Cyagangy

Self Immolation fr fr
Apr 27, 2024
142
I know most people here 'want' to die. but do you think you DESERVE death? I personally do. It's not like I've killed anyone or something like that but I still feel like I've done enough bad things to people I love and am a bad enough person that I do deserve to die.
I don't want to die but I know I must. I have done much wrong in the past and for me it's only a matter of time before I hurt people in the future.
 
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tenshi天神

tenshi天神

everything i love gathers dust inside my chest
Aug 13, 2024
18
no way! I feel no obligations to anyone, and I have a lot of empathy for myself & my past actions because I know I was facing very difficult circumstances. I forgive myself because I know deep down what I've done is not who I am, & I've put the work in to change. I make mistakes often but life is a constant learning process for all.

On the other hand, I have no real interest in living. It's a lot of effort to put into something I don't even like doing... at my peak (most joyful), I still think I would rather have died years ago when I wanted it most. Jobs are boring, romance is unfulfilling, nothing makes me feel strongly!! why finish my reading list orrrr invest in anything orrrr take classes when I could just "sleep" forever?

I love you brother, I hope you're able to see one day that your past does not define you. thanks for sharing ur thoughts and asking such an interesting question ^^
 
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shego1217

Member
May 15, 2024
11
I feel I deserve to die in that I'm a bad person who has done enough bad and also not enough for the people I love. And people say I would go to hell, which sounds about right. On the other hand, maybe death's too easy and I deserve to suffer.
 
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Kurai

Kurai

Suffering
Jul 23, 2023
241
absolutely I feel like I deserve die I'm a bad person the world would be better off without me
 
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Ramsay Fiction

Ramsay Fiction

Soulburner
Aug 15, 2024
58
I definitely deserve it. I deserve some peace.
 
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N33dT0D13

N33dT0D13

Xe/It
Apr 2, 2023
365
See, the world would be better off without me but honestly, I don't deserve to die, I deserve to suffer. The world already sucks, I'm not making it suck significantly more or less.
 
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annointed_towers

annointed_towers

Cursed by God
Dec 9, 2022
320
I don't think I deserve to die but it's what God wants
 
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Soupster

Soupster

Chasing dreams, catching nightmares
Aug 14, 2024
184
It's an interesting concept, 'deserving' to die. I am, I think, on the whole a pretty good person. I've always tried to be kind and helpful to people. I've never intentionally done anything cruel and malicious. Have I hurt people? Without a doubt. We all have. If you think your actions or words have never caused harm to someone you're delusional. Do I think that my mistakes in life warrant death? No.

Now, do I think I've earned the right to die? That I 'deserve' the privilege of exiting this life at a time and place of my choosing? Yes. I think I have suffered enough physical, chronic, untreatable pain. I think I've been tormented by my mind long enough. I think that I 'deserve' to die.
 
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JFED

Member
Jul 8, 2020
61
absolutely
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

Mage
Jul 25, 2024
504
Deserve it for being a shitty person.
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I do not think that I deserve to die, but want to because of severe suffering due to mental illness.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
May 10, 2023
423
Deserve to be dead and burn in hell
 
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wCvML2

Member
Nov 15, 2021
452
In my current state yes I deserve to die. I have the capability of at least taking care of myself to not burden others with picking up my slack but the lizard brain sees my parents as a mean to save energy and use less effort. I know I would have done whatever necessary to survive if they weren't around but because they're still here I keep avoiding responsibilities and indulging in whatever instant gratification is available like a pig. That's why I want to move away but it's like the lizard brain keeps subconsciously self sabotaging to make me stay in this parasitic state.
 
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Aprilfarewell4

Elementalist
Apr 9, 2024
805
I was stupid enough to do something I knew I should never do again, so probably in a way.
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
If I knew someone like me, I'd end them if I could. So yeah, taking myself out is no different. The chaos and pain I've spread in the world should have ended years ago, but I was too chicken-shit. Now, time has run out, so the world can finally be rid of me.
 
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iwanttobeinpeace

iwanttobeinpeace

Lost Soul
Jul 13, 2024
12
That's the end goal.
 
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Jeav

Jeav

Member
Aug 1, 2024
72
I know most people here 'want' to die. but do you think you DESERVE death? I personally do. It's not like I've killed anyone or something like that but I still feel like I've done enough bad things to people I love and am a bad enough person that I do deserve to die.
"Everyone is good, and you are the only bad one? Don't be fooled—everyone have a dark side. It's human nature, and just like the rest of us, you're not perfect. It's natural; sometimes, our egos take control. Don't listen to those who put you down; it may be their reality, but it's not a global reality. Humans aren't inherently bad; it's the environment that can make us so. The first step to getting out of this cycle is to love and accept yourself as you are. I'll leave here a video to help you clearing your mind and reasoning you about our essence and true self without pre-programming."

 
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iloveloving

Student
Aug 4, 2024
113
Yes and I've peacefully accepted it! 😊
 
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BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

Member
Aug 13, 2024
41
Yes. I have constantly lied and hurt my parents, to the point that I know they will never look in my face without remembering what I have done to them. It hurts so much, and I would give the world to be able to start over, so they don't have awful memories of me. I know they forgive and love me know, but they do not deserve to have a daughter that has moved on and forgiven herself.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,335
I don't see death as a punishment to people who actually want to die. It's more like a relief or a reward. In which case, I'm not overly keen on the idea that we need to 'earn' it. That we need to have gone through a shit load of pain and suffering for it to be justifiable. I think- so long as the decision is well thought out. If we really can't see a way of getting life to work for us, we deserve to be free from it. Someone making that decision will have gone through suffering I imagine. I don't think it should be up to other people to decide we haven't suffered enough!

As for people who do terrible things and will likely continue to do terrible things- practically speaking- they probably do deserve death to protect other people in the future. That said, if they feel true remorse and will never re-offend, maybe that's different. I don't really agree with capital punushment though because I think our justice systems are fallible.
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
179
No, but I don't deserve to live. And I've been living/suffering for too long.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
795
I know most people here 'want' to die. but do you think you DESERVE death? I personally do. It's not like I've killed anyone or something like that but I still feel like I've done enough bad things to people I love and am a bad enough person that I do deserve to die.
Not really. But I feel that way sometimes. The morally worst thing I've ever done that I can think of:

- happened when I was 11-12, 6th-7th grade
- was entirely accidental and nonviolent
- most likely has negatively affected me much longer than it affected the other party. They probably forgot completely in well under a year, I have probably developed some issues

so, I probably wouldn't think very poorly of myself at all as an objective observer.

Then again I could easily be a much shittier person than I realize
 
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CosmeticContests

Freedom!!!!
Mar 20, 2024
24
I am a horrible person. But that's not why I want to die.

And not horrible in some nice, sweet, redeemable way. No good story arc here.

I cheated on most of my partners, boyfriends, and even first husband. Pretty much everyone before the age of 30. Slept with countless people and left them easily. Not that I didn't like them or wanted to ruin people's lives but sex never really had any meaning. If someone wanted me to, I would sleep with them, even if I wasn't attracted to them at all. Most of the time I wasn't.

I've broken up marriages. Even my own.

And I had friends, but of course my inability to not be a whore sorta ruined most of those from my early adulthood.

I haven't done any of this in ten years. I met my second husband and bonded with him. Sounds dumb but here we are a decade later and I haven't cheated even when i had opportunities. I think he's the only person that ever cared about me.

The more unhappy I've become over the last two years however I've felt i might just self destruct again. Losing my job has made it worse. So I've walled myself away from everyone. I have no friends now and only speak to 3 people. My mom, son, and husband.

I'm a terrible person so really the only solution is solitary confinement.

I am certain most people who have ever known me would say death would be too good for me. Thank goodness they don't get to make the decision.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,861
I don't deserve to die as well as I don't deserve to suffer like I have been suffering in the past years with the result that I became suicidal. External circumstances may force me to kms - I don't deserve this.

Actually, I don't want to die rather I'd prefer to live my life but circumstances are difficult and now I can't live my life.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,206
Well, we are all going to die at some point. It's natural. I would just like to speed it up a bit, that's all.
 
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RABITIA

RABITIA

Member
Jul 21, 2024
19
I don't think I deserve to die at all. I haven't done anything bad to anyone, I just didn't have luck in the genetic lottery and spawn point.
 
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