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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Someone at work ages ago made the comment: 'You must consider yourself funny.' Or, something like it. That was a slightly curved ball because I didn't feel like I had a hugely positive opinion of myself. Not in a showy way anyway. I also personally have a big problem with narcisistic traits, seeing as I first developed ideation because of a (suspected) one. So, that was a bitter pill to swallow. But, I considered that they could be right to an extent and, I really didn't/ don't like that aspect of myself.

On the face of it though, I wonder- is it really wrong? To believe in what you're saying and try and say it with humour? Maybe though, if you're trying to come off as superior or, the joke isn't at all funny. And especially when you're not clever. I have very little knowledge about anything to argue a case. It's weird though. We should all like ourselves. We should all feel free to express our opinions but then, too much and it becomes more cringy I suppose.

I try to challenge negative thoughts I have- to see whether they are prejudiced or, knee jerk reactions. But, sometimes I'll express something I wish I hadn't too.

Some of my worst social faux pas have come about through nerves though. They were maybe the worst because I appeared so rude or ridiculous in the moment. Life's so much easier as a hermit!

I'm sure I have lots of faults. I think I prefer not being around people because that way, I'm confronted with them less. I suppose I don't even have to worry about them, if there's less chance/ opportunity they get unleashed.

Do you analyse yourself? I imagine many here over analyse themselves and are likely way too harsh with themselves. I think that's a big problem here though. Not enough self love or, respect/ self kindness.
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Torn between fixing and ending my life
Aug 27, 2025
246
I would like to say that I am aware of most of my faults, but in hindsight I've made mistakes because I felt that I was right or my approach or behavior was appropriate for the situation. Yet, I also know that in my previous relationship I allowed my anger to override my sensibility and that manifested itself in being overprotective of my boys and in some cases, road rage episodes.

I own that now and am embarrassed by it, because that's not who I choose to be. That's not the person that I wanted the boys to see me as nor do I want for them to think that behavior is OK.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
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Well i guess im somewhat aware.
I always try not to "mess up".

Like MyShadow said sometimes I get my emotions get the better of me.

That said even when I did something wrong I apologize for my behavior.

I dont like doing mistakes all the time
Like being clumsy or not careful enough.

Im not perfect by any means but I try my best to be slightly better.

I wont lie theres times im too stubborn or angry that I dont see the hurt I made or cause but is best to sit down and reflect ig.
 

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