do you take care of yourself even if youre gonna ctb?

[puppybrained]

i eventually plan to ctb, maybe not right now but one day. i think sometimes when i do things that are bad in the long-term, i tell myself it doesn't matter because i'll be dead when it catches up to me. what made me think of this is that i listen to music really loudly, i don't like being able to hear my thoughts and the heavy music feels really good when it's loud. people around me scold me for doing this because they say it'll damage my hearing in the future, but i just dismiss it for the reason i gave. maybe i should actually put some effort into what little life i have?
do you try to take care of yourself in the time you have, or are you more lax about your long-term health?

 

[TomorrowNeverComes]

When I originally planned to ctb, I did everything with a fuck all mentality, drank more than I could take, neglected my health, spent large amounts of money without reason, pushed everyone away, just stupid shit that looked good to me in the moment but not in the long run. "Who cares? I'm going to die, right?"
When I couldn't bring myself to end it all, I pretty much had nothing. I had to drastically change everything about my life to make it back to where I was before, and now living that same life that I hate is harder than ever.

I would advise you to take even just a little care of yourself because you never know what could happen.

 

[puppybrained]

When I originally planned to ctb, I did everything with a fuck all mentality, drank more than I could take, neglected my health, spent large amounts of money without reason, pushed everyone away, just stupid shit that looked good to me in the moment but not in the long run. "Who cares? I'm going to die, right?"
When I couldn't bring myself to end it all, I pretty much had nothing. I had to drastically change everything about my life to make it back to where I was before, and now living that same life that I hate is harder than ever.

I would advise you to take even just a little care of yourself because you never know what could happen.

thank you for the advice. this is somewhat of my fear. i haven't done it yet, what if i really do change my mind? i probably should do more for myself with that in mind, even if it feels easier not to. i'd hate having to pick up the pieces later.
i hope you're doing better now, i'm glad you're still here.

 

[Defenestration]

I neglect myself a lot... and they make me look lazy

 

[Twiceler]

Are you sure it's not self-harm? Lack of self care primarily means no washing in weeks, or more. It's easier to harm than to care, but those are not mutually exclusive.

 

[TakeMeToHeaven]

well I exercise every week to relieve stress

 

[sugarb]

i eventually plan to ctb, maybe not right now but one day. i think sometimes when i do things that are bad in the long-term, i tell myself it doesn't matter because i'll be dead when it catches up to me. what made me think of this is that i listen to music really loudly, i don't like being able to hear my thoughts and the heavy music feels really good when it's loud. people around me scold me for doing this because they say it'll damage my hearing in the future, but i just dismiss it for the reason i gave. maybe i should actually put some effort into what little life i have?
do you try to take care of yourself in the time you have, or are you more lax about your long-term health?

I try to avoid feeling icky and getting so unhealthy/unclean others find it concerning, but otherwise I don't care.

I'm not doing anything irreversibly harmful to myself (just missing the odd shower/meal) so if I change my mind for some reason I've got no worries

edit: Btw I like your pfp. Also, have a nice day/night!

 

[Forever Sleep]

To an extent, yes. I still need to work to support myself so, I need to be fit enough to do that. Last year, I just got so overweight and unfit, everything was so much harder. So, I've made more effort this year. It's mainly because my CTB isn't exactly imminent though. I want to wait for my Dad to go first. So, a lot of what I do and hate (exercise, domestic crap, working my arse off) is so that things don't actually get worse for the time being. The whole greater good thing.

 

[Cress]

Yeah I still brush my teeth and take showers and feed myself appropriately. Just because you're going to pass away at some indeterminate time in the future doesn't mean you should stop taking care of yourself. Nobody deserves to suffer and it should never be encouraged anymore than necessary. If you stop taking care of yourself life will just be more miserable in some capacity for you.

 

[madoka]

for me, i still do take care of myself. trying to lose weight, for reasons, brush teeth, shower, etc. when i die, i hope to have done some things i havent before and most of it needs me to be thinner and healthy !

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I don't plan to CTB anytime soon rn but I take care of myself - probably less than the avg people out there but also not to an extent that I deteriorate. I wouldn't say I'm neglecting myself. I go on living like I do for many years, long before I became suicidal.

It would be a disaster if I suffered additional problems on top my the problems I already have.