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lnlybnny

Mage
Jan 25, 2024
545
i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,654
Honestly, I haven't cried in a relatively long time.

I used to cry regularly.
It allowed me to "reboot" my emotions.
I just felt better.

Now I don't cry anymore.
I do not know why.
I just don't feel like it.
 
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RoseGarden

RoseGarden

Alone & Unloved
Apr 10, 2024
97
I used up all my tears nearly a decade ago
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
983
Not often, honestly.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,952
Heavens, I am 68 and I cry a lot. I have a soft spot for helping folks and when I read something about someone hurting physically or mentally I cry. I also cry when my depression goes into high gear, this is me.

Walter
 
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Little_Suzy

Little_Suzy

Amphibious
May 1, 2023
939
Yes, of course. đź’•

Recently, a number of the posts have been heartbreaking. Women and little girls do not merit such mistreatment. It's so sad that not long ago they were sharing their stories, and now some have ctb.
 
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lnlybnny

Mage
Jan 25, 2024
545
Heavens, I am 68 and I cry a lot. I have a soft spot for helping folks and when I read something about someone hurting physically or mentally I cry. I also cry when my depression goes into high gear, this is me.

Walter
Yes, of course. đź’•
at least i'm not alone then :)
 
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yearsoflonliness

yearsoflonliness

Member
Apr 4, 2024
50
I used to be completely numb/dead inside. Now that I'm actually getting ready to CTB soon I've been crying a lot more.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
I cry over over the littlest things I wish I could be more numb actually
 
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hadenough58

Looking for Understanding
Mar 7, 2024
127
There are times where for no apparent reason I feel the tears well up, other times it will be a place or recollection of better times in my life that is the cause.
 
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apenasumbrasileiro

apenasumbrasileiro

@devoidvessel
Apr 16, 2023
10
Every fuckin' day. I don't like to feel suicidal. If it was my choice, i would rather love to be alive and not to cry about it.
 
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alivefornow

alivefornow

thinking about it
Feb 6, 2023
196
Sometimes. I go a few months without crying and then it starts over again. It's weird and I don't know what that's about.

If I'm crying over a song or a movie, it probably means I'm improving a little. If I'm crying over some personal trauma, it's really dark and hard to control.

But if I'm not crying at all, just hurting and losing my mind with no relief, then I'm at my lowest. That's when I can't distract my thoughts from taking my life.

I find it hard for me to believe I can feel happiness. It's been too long. Any improvement doesn't last very long and then I'm back in the self-feeding depression spiral.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,244
Pretty much every day, multiple times.
 
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momento.mori

Wake me up next year...
Mar 18, 2024
157
I use to cry so much that I'd have to take benzos to call me down. Now I'm just so numb, I'm just exhausted with life.
 
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thelazyegg

thelazyegg

Member
Mar 25, 2024
49
at least i'm not alone then :)
You are definitely not alone! I cry literally so much, I think I have started to get wrinkles from crying haha I wish I was numb! I'm jealous that people can not feel like they want to cry and they can even stop themselves. Everyone calls me a cry baby and I am 🥲
 
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GreenGlassDoor

GreenGlassDoor

life is but a dream
Oct 25, 2023
80
I find it really hard to cry. Its common for me to feel like crying but not be able to produce tears or anything. I can and do from everyday things like laughter, but its hard to cry just from raw emotions. But then every so often I break down completely. Its almost cyclical, if any of this makes sense.
 
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Have_a_nice_Life

Have_a_nice_Life

Member
Feb 22, 2024
57
i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb
i feel everything but am mostly unable to cry. Crying is cathartic to me but i can't.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,910
No, not really. I just feel tired of existing and dread for what lies ahead. Really wish I never existed more than anything, existing has only ever caused me to suffer, only death can bring me peace from this cruel, futile and undesirable existence.
 
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Throwawayacc3

Throwawayacc3

Freedom
Mar 4, 2024
1,385
Yes.
 
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darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
620
Sometimes
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
965
No, I don't really cry.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I wish I could but I can't. I'm unfortunately one of those people who are just numb and cannot cry even if I wanted to
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
I cry every fucking day
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
I cry alone, every day, especially when I think of CTBing and leaving my partner alone. It breaks my heart.
 
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pilotviolin

pilotviolin

looking to the horizon
Jan 27, 2024
361
i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb
i cant cry properly anymore i can get 2-5 tears if im lucky but i feel the strong emotions that should come with tears. i am wishing those in this thread who need to cry a cathartic moment of release, and those who cry often some comfort and relief.
 
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mtoro998

Experienced
Feb 29, 2024
268
Yeah every day when im alone. I still cant believe that this is what my life has become and this is the end.
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,084
I've cried almost every day this past week. I cried today too.
 
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BackToLobby

BackToLobby

My bad, first time living.
Apr 9, 2024
80
I cry almost every day. I try to forget the memories that hurt me but I can't get over it even though everyone around me has already done so and that makes it hurt a lot more.
 
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CalCal

CalCal

Member
Mar 18, 2024
5
I usually cry whenever I think about anything to do with my past, and how happy I use to be. I don't really cry in any other circumstance, I've just become numb to everything else. Crying makes me feel so weak even though it feels good
 
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