Do you self harm?

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If you do how and how bad is it like do you cut deep is a good part of your arm brunt so on and so forth

(I think it's only fair if I go first)
I cut but not deep it's still enough to leave scars tho

 

[C:\]

I used to, I have been clean for a while now. I was in a really dark spot earlier this year, got really close to ctb but got through it.
No urges anymore since ive been medicated

 

[FailureToAll]

I cut. Lately it's been mid to deep fat depth

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Its been a couple years since I've done it but yes. I am still slightly scarred from it. Probably never going away. Left arm usually. and then moved to the top of thighs because I 1) didn't have anymore room. I mean my forearm was completely covered at a certain point. And 2) I got caught. I wasn't able to hide them anymore. I couldn't justify wearing long sleeves or jackets in the middle of summer. Now I just mentally self harm haha

 

[SpencerSees]

usually fat layer on shoulders/upper arms, dermis on wrists and forearms

 

[Terranova]

If you do how and how bad is it like do you cut deep is a good part of your arm brunt so on and so forth

(I think it's only fair if I go first)
I cut but not deep it's still enough to leave scars tho

i been doing it since i was around 13 - 14 years old, tho i think i dont do it that much, or maybe thats just me giving myself an excuse, regardless i dont do anywhere other than my thighs since i need to hide it and anywhere on my torso would feel horrible to have scars in, i would do my arms but as i said i've to hide it

 

[unending_emptiness]

Ya I kinda self harm now but I used to a lot more a little bit ago . Don't have the energy as much anymore . I guess mine are pretty deep idk tho . Have a few protruding scars and on average I usually cut to almost fat if you know what I mean ( just barely any but just a little fat and lots of dark pink ) On my arms I used to cut when I just started and my scars are max from Styros and are just long little lines . My tights are another story : kinda short but tic scars .

 

[LucifersIntrovert]

I do it on my legs/inner thigh because I got caught with it on my arms about 2 years ago so if you need to be more discreet I'd say do it there but you need to push a lot harder compared to your arms because there's more fat/skin there.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

Although I haven't cut myself for years, I still struggle with self harm. The only reason I don't self harm is for others. When I was first caught, my pain turned into everyone else's pain. I suffer enough on my own; I don't need to drag down everyone else with me. I still have urges frequently, and I hate that the hurt never went away. I'm trapped in the psychological pain with no relief.

 

[SilentSuicidal]

Yeah, I do. I have scars as long as my arm on my legs, i've taken out chunks of my skin with fat still intact. I've cut through veins and exposed muscle and tendons in my arm. I've been self harming ever since I was little, it began as a way for me to cope with my emotions but then developed as a punishment system which evolved into something else. I have scars on my calfs, thighs, stomach, chest, neck, and arms.

 

[Finalnight]

I'm often hitting my head whenever the intrusive thoughts I get become too much to handle, I'm 27 and never had them, they started some months ago and they're driving me insane. I can't believe this had to happen right when I'm hoping to ctb soon, I was expecting to go in peace, guess I can't even afford that. Fuck.

 

[_apathetic]

I don't cut. I feel more relieved when I punch my head as hard as I can when my feelings are too overwhelming.

 

[sad_rock]

My SH started off as emotional. I would be degrading and depriving myself from basic needs/joys of life. Mentally, I was predetermined to harm myself as much as possible and avoid any possibilities that I could get better. It evolved to active physical SH this year- headbanging and recently cutting. I get torn between fearing pain and wanting to inflict the most damage on myself.

I don't cut. I feel more relieved when I punch my head as hard as I can when my feelings are too overwhelming.

Sometimes, I can't bring myself to punch/slap so I just get stuck in turmoil

 

[mob]

Been clean for a few months now again, but only from cutting. I like abusing alcohol and pills, when I'm alone.

 

[skies]

yeah i cut on the bottoms of my arms but im always scared to cut too deep as i dont have a ton of meat there. it makes me envious of people who have more to cut into

 

[pandsniper100]

Hmm I use to cut but have been mad tempted lately as I use weed to cope with the urges but the stuff that has been going around here lately barely gets u high more like a headache especially if not combined with otter substance's

I have cut deep enough quite a feu times
Have more than a feu scars from it deeply miss it the blood the feeling the waight off my shoulders the calming blood trickling out or if drinking kinda pouring out as it stops it from clotting as much
I have some burn marks but they are far less noticeable tbh

Cutting just felt more natural to me

 

[Wishing2di3]

I have been cutting for over two decades and do not plan to stop. Recently I've begun punching the top of my head, or slamming things into the top of my head as this doesn't leave any telltale signs like cutting does. And I'm being monitored. I've never gone very deep. Enough to leave a scar is all.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Yes. It started with cutting when I was 12. Binge eating since before then. I have dabbled in bruising myself, hitting my head against the wall. I abuse THC. I "self poison" which is basically overdosing on meds. I actually just relapsed and cut the other day after years clean. It felt so good. It's hard when you have a partner who sees you naked every day.

 

[Alltheywanted]

I used to cut pretty deep on my right shoulder but i stopped after my therapist told me that those scars are gonna stay with me for my whole life. I wouldn't be so concerned if they were small but whenever im shirtless you just cant not see them.

 

[water bunny]

I cut whenever i'm overwhelmed. I used to overdose on medicine as a form of self harm but i've lost the ability to swallow pills

i'm consistently hitting dermis but i dream of hitting the hypodermis (fat)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yes, I do. I think I started when I was around 12, using a kitchen knife. I've also hit myself hard enough to cause bruises, bit myself but stopped after my nerves started to get damaged (the damage wasn't permanent, thankfully), sunk my nails into my arm and scratched through my skin (leaving behind scars).

I have a few scars from cutting, but I usually make sure to cut in places where they aren't going noticeable (behind the knees, and along the lines of my inner elbow and upper wrists). I've only once cut around my forearms, and it was a big mistake. The scars were a lot more noticeable with two of them being slightly raised.

 

[R_N]

Not really, at least not in any severe way. I don't see the point of it personally. It wouldn't help me in any way.

Besides some ctb attempts I had I don't torture my own body nor find the idea appealing.

 

[LetMeBeSad]

I do but, it has been years since I cut. I tend to use blunt objects and beat my thighs. When I go through long stretches of self harm, my thighs end up looking like rainbow rorschach ink blots. When they get like that, I can sit for hours just massaging them and it hurts enough to count.

My self harm is mixed up in my sexuality though too. I like the pain. I got a few wires crossed growing up I think.

 

[princexhhn]

yep i do, i love self harming. I use either a razor or a piece of broken ceramic from a mug or plate^-^ i also self harm sometimes by getting absolutely black out drunk! recently, i also self harmed by overdosing^-^ im going to kill whatever inside me is wrong and i will kill myself if i have to.