I really don't know. I certainly feel like a bad person often enough, but it's not like I've actually ever hurt anyone. Be that as it may, I'm a cauldron of negative emotions. I'm extremely self-absorbed and I'd be lying if I said I didn't sometimes delight in the sufferings of others. Not only that, but I feel like I can't abide anything that doesn't fall into my own selfishly defined parameters. Doesn't everybody do that though? And then there's my mom who says I'm a good person, but she's my mom. Of course she'd say that.
When it comes down to it, I'm a creature who seems to be utterly incapable of showing/feeling love and affection. What type that does exist for me in my fantasies is totally self-serving. It's all about how the other person can help me, with my problems, and to always be there for me. It's never about how I could actually enrich their life by their knowing me when, in reality, only the opposite could be expected. A ten tonne anchor dragging them down with me, would be more like it. So yeah, I don't feel as if I'm Johnny Rotten per se, but I do feel that what I am just isn't very acceptably decent.