Discussion Do you remind yourself of your past failures? 😩 #19

[MeltingBrain]

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[soonatpeace777888]

Every. Second. Of. My. Existence.

Welcome to the hell of OCD :(

 

[jazzcat]

every day, all the time, every second I'm aware of how pathetic my situation is, every time I'm sad I think about all the failures that lead me here

 

[alonely]

I don't see many failures in my past, and the ones I do see are minor. Bigger things that go wrong - I don't see as my fault, but as me doing the best that I could have possibly done given the circumstances and the hand that I was dealt. My intentions are pretty much always pure unless someone has hurt me.

I think this thinking stems from having gone through so much abuse and really internalizing that the victim is never to blame.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

anxiety reminds me of all the times ive fucked up in social situations. self hatred reminds me of all the times ive fucked up something good. bpd reminds me of all the times ive fucked up relationships. its paralysing bc im too scared to do anything for fear of fucking up again. i get stuck in day dreams where my brain replays all the times ive fucked up and its exhausting.

 

[ToniFoxGirl!!]

I violently cry once a month minimum about my ex, and am usually thinking about how much better everyone else's lives around me are because they aren't a fuck up like me.

 

[BornByGhosts]

personally no i don't, but life tends to bring me events to remind me

 

[StolenLife]

Yes. Very often. I constantly ruminate about things I could have done differently and about consenquences of bad choices. Many of those bad choices result in reasons for ctb.

 

[outatime_85]

I am stuck in a cycle of self-criticism every single day.

I have been engulfed in failure from the day I was born, and I am still engulfed in failure.

My entire life is a never-ending playbook of failures, and it is still growing.

I will be the only member of my circle to die with more failures to their name and zero positive success and zero positive accomplishments.

 

[ctvunny]

Hahaha yeah. Even if I dont, theres people who surrounds me that would do it.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No, but everything else does.

 

[Sapphire]

I don't. It's not healthy to constantly live in the past. The past is over and done with. You can't go back and change anything. You made the best decisions you could at the time. It's better to learn from your past mistakes so you won't repeat them and focus on the future.

 

[benzol]

I regret every day the day when loud speakers made my tinnitus to suicide level, I should have gone out of this room. And it was even a work event, not even a party