Do you have any doubts?

[ADBoy777]

I had the ctb idea in my head for years but a couple of months ago the doubts stopped and I 100% sure I'm gonna do it.
It's like the last and new purpose of my life - ending it.

What about you guys how sure you are in the will to commit? You have some doubts?

 

[Agon321]

If I didn't have any doubts, I wouldn't be here anymore ;).

I'm waiting until my doubts no longer matter.
I have already decided on CTB.
I'm just waiting until I hit a wall and grow mental balls.
Then I'll go on a date with death and see what the afterlife has to offer me ;).

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

I still have faint hope and don't want to part with my cats. But it's becoming less and less bearable

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that I'd never wish to suffer in this existence under any circumstances. To me personally suicide is all that feels rational as having the ability to exist truly is the most hopeless and futile burden with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. In my case suicide would be the way to find safety from suffering, I have no interest in being enslaved in this undesirable existence for decades on end just to die painfully tormented by old age.

Only non-existence is ideal to me as it's the permanent absence of all suffering and harm, I'd always prefer to not exist and I only find comfort in death which it's why it's truly so hellish how there isn't the option for me to just fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep.

 

[TheLastBoyOnEarth]

Given I'm CTB because of a chronic pain illness that will probably eventually kill me, sometimes I wonder if I should let the illness naturally kill me slowly, just so everybody can process my death better. But I'm probably killing myself as it would be too slow for my illness to kill me and because I'm emotionally exhausted of the whole thing.

 

[pocket7]

I have ordered SN, but today I started experiencing doubts because I read on this forum that someone said that it's possible to get permanent damage if a person survives the attempt. I can't risk making my life much more unbearable. That's why I'm paralyzed now, not sure what to do.

 

[everythingoes]

I don't have any doubts anymore. I know my quality of life will just get worse and worse if I don't end it. I know I'll never have the life I want. I'm at peace with my decision.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I hit a wall regarding what I can tolerate so I don't have much of a choice.

 

[BardBarrie]

I had the ctb idea in my head for years but a couple of months ago the doubts stopped and I 100% sure I'm gonna do it.
It's like the last and new purpose of my life - ending it.

What about you guys how sure you are in the will to commit? You have some doubts?

I have some doubts about the structural integrity of my hanging method: whether the anchor point or ligature will hold my weight.

I'm terrified of the pain and that I won't lose consciousness quickly, but there's not much I can do about that.

 

[suffering_mo_7]

Given I'm CTB because of a chronic pain illness that will probably eventually kill me, sometimes I wonder if I should let the illness naturally kill me slowly, just so everybody can process my death better. But I'm probably killing myself as it would be too slow for my illness to kill me and because I'm emotionally exhausted of the whole thing.

If I had a natural illness, even if chronic, I would likely let it ride out for many reasons...though I know it's hard and depressing and I am not trying to discount you at all. Mine is neurotoxicity from a medical infusion (pharmaceutical harm is torture), plus stomach damage from bile reflux, causing pain and difficulty with eating.

 

[Unknown21]

No, I am not afraid of failure or pain as before. I am sure that I will do it, but I do not know when.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My doubts aren't that life could get better. I don't even have much desire for all that now. Or rather- I'm sick of putting in the effort to turn things around. My doubts surround the actual attempt. What if it fails? What if it's horrendously painful and to a lesser extent- what if there is an afterlife and they frown on suicide.

 

[kyhoti]

I'm worried that I'll chicken out and just let my illness run its course. I don't want to go out with an OD, which almost got me by semi-accident, but my disease could draw out my bye-bye for fucking months, which is a no-go. Fuckity-fuck-fuck.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

When I think about it logically I have no doubts that I need to kill myself, that this must be my only purpose.

I see no objective reason to even exist. Much less existing with the many horrible things that can happen to any human.

Then u have to also exist with the daily stress, problems, labor u have to do, suffering just to exist for no reason. All this labor to just exist and wait for something even more horrible to happen to you. Then u get very old which is just hell