Yes, I have a checklist. I created it in April of last year, when I planned to CTB because my state's home quarantine order. Even though my social life is 98% back to normal---that's more effective than my Covid vaccine---I'm aware than the quarantine order could come back if the Democrats want it to. So I want to have a CTB plan ready to implement, be it because of Democrats' laws, my family's future treatment of me, or my job becoming more stressful than I'm willing to deal with.
Original source: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ctb-checklist.37667/ (a thread dated 4/29/2020)
1 month before
- Buy supplies, such as SN, N, strong garbage bags, helium, Benadryl, rope, Bacardi 151, etc.
- Create list of people to mail letters to in later steps.
2 weeks before
- Pick out any physical journals, print photos, or other physical evidence I don't want remaining.
- Pick out any virtual or online accounts I don't want remaining.
- Put all the supplies in a safe but not easy-to-find place.
- Type up, but not mail, any letters I plan to send later.
1 week before
- Call my friends and have some pleasant phone conversations.
- Buy any literature I plan to read right before CTB'ing.
- Bookmark any websites I plan to visit right before CTB'ing.
- Pick out a restaurant I plan to get take-out from in the next step.
2 days before
- Visit deceased family members at a cemetery.
- Eat a favorite take-out meal from a restaurant of my choice.
**** This is where turning back becomes impossible.****
24 hours before
- Close all my e-mail, group chat, messenger, and social media accounts.
- Destroy any journals, print photos, or other physical evidence I don't want remaining.
- Visit any favorite places withing walking distance of my home for one last time.
- Call the people I love and have a heartfelt, pleasant conversation, without tipping them off.
- Mail angry letters to my state legislature and governor, saying I CTB'ed because of their laws.
3 hours before
- Mail loving, apologetic letters to my family and friends, explaining that I CTB'ed because of our state laws.
- Mail a letter to my local police department, with my address and entry instructions, so I can be found quickly post-mortem.
- Mail a check to my immediate family to offset my funeral costs.
- Gather all the CTB supplies within arm's reach.
1 hour before
- Put on the clothes I plan to CTB in.
- Destroy my cell phone and fill my home phone jack with epoxy. (to prevent last-minute calls to 911)
- Watch some nostalgic childhood cartoons and videos on YouTube.
- Read some religious or spiritual literature, if I feel like it.
- Read some favorite books.
FINALLY, CTB.