Help Do you feel like following up with medical appointments?

[madwoman]

Hi,

I have a follow up medical appointment soon about a health issue that is kind of the icing on top of leading me to choosing to CTB bc the hope is lost and things continue to get worse. I found out results on something by an assistant (and not the provider) and have been pushing off a follow up with the provider to give me the results and next steps. This diagnosis is one of my worse fears come true and it's hard to hear it knowing there's not much to do more than what I'm already doing. So I feel like the appt is pointless and will just make me feel worse or annoyed if they try to instill hope which is false.

& then I have therapy after which I've also been pushing off bc I'm tired of discussing the same thing and I just don't want to be bothered anymore. And bc I want to ctb, I don't want them to find out so was thinking of canceling via a message bc of the holidays etc just an excuse so they think I'm fine

So I'm just wondering would you go to these follow ups if you were in a similar situation or do you feel it's pointless?

 

[Dejected 55]

Yeah... I was in the hospital for my kidney stone a month or so ago, and when I got out I was thinking I was going to try and kill myself soon so not worried about the follow-up to remove the temporary stent they put in my kidney. Then I failed my attempt and landed in the mental facility for several weeks... and couldn't follow up... and now I'm back out and thinking I should really do that follow up because it seems like I'm going to stay alive for a while and don't need additional complications.

As for therapy... I related when I first got released I had a therapist appt that I went to and they sent me back to the facility. When they discharged me this time, they hadn't yet scheduled a follow-up therapist appt... and they have called a couple of times trying to schedule one with me, but I've not returned those calls.