Discussion Do you feel guilty about how your family will feel?

[Eren]

I feel really bad because I know that my mother could not stand it.

 

[oldgray]

sometimes i think about it but i don't really care.

 

[Circles]

I feel really bad because I know that my mother could not stand it.

Of course but I didn't get the luxury to choose to be born. The least my mother can try to understand is my ability to choose whenever I feel like dying. It may backfire and cause my small family to be distraught for the rest of their lives but that's on them not me and if they can't deal with it just like how they would tell me to deal with living then they'll never understand. I love my family but the anguish I feel most days destroys whatever love for them I have left.

 

[throwaway777]

same .. my mother is the only one who truly cares about me … i love her, and i feel guilty … but as the time passes, and my suffering grows, i cant care anymore ...

 

[jaemus12]

Yeah I do. I am lucky enough to have a close family. I know it'll definitely hurt them when I ctb. But I don't think I can hang on much longer so it has to be done.

I hope they'll forgive me.

 

[AndyCurious]

same .. my mother is the only one who truly cares about me … i love her, and i feel guilty … but as the time passes, and my suffering grows, i cant care anymore ...

Hugs <3

 

[throwaway777]

Hugs <3

thank u <33 hugs to u andy <3

 

[AndyCurious]

thank u <33 hugs to u andy <3

Your welcome, and thank you <3

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Hugely guilty and I'm nowhere near even doing it yet

 

[AndyCurious]

Hugely guilty and I'm nowhere near even doing it yet

Hugs <3

 

[sadsoul]

I do sometimes feel bad and I'm scared that my suicide might completely destroy my parents'/my brother's life. But I try not to think about the consequences of my suicide because it only makes you more depressed. The only time I feel good about leaving my family behind is when I'm really, really angry at them.
Before I attempted suicide, I told myself stuff like "my parents will move on", "suicide happens all the time, it's really not a big deal", "when I'm dead I won't be able to feel bad for my parents anymore". I kind of convinced myself that it wouldn't be a tragic thing if I killed myself. I focused on the good consequences, i.e. finally finding peace. Sounds very selfish, and maybe it is, but when you're suffering you want to end your pain even if it means being 'selfish'.

 

[Jane Doe]

Sometimes, they will understand though

 

[RottingFlowerBrains]

My mum said if i killed myself shed be mad she had to fork out the costs lol

 

[Jane Doe]

My mum said if i killed myself shed be mad she had to fork out the costs lol

Wow really?

 

[RottingFlowerBrains]

Wow really?

Yes i come from a ruthless family theres no filter for words or behaviour

 

[Jane Doe]

Yes i come from a ruthless family theres no filter for words or behaviour

That's really harsh

 

[RottingFlowerBrains]

That's really harsh

That didnt even hurt my feelings.. thats nothing compared to some of the shit they spit so its okay
She was just being honest lol

 

[JayAOA]

A little, but i'm not going to live just for the benefit of others.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Absolutely not. Not after what happened to me, and no one giving a shit. They all literally sat back and watched me walk into the flames, while patting me on the back. And then the way that they act now after all is said and done?? As far as I'm concerned, my father deserves to find my body. Karma.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yes I'm devastated as I know they will be devastated but no one could endure this brain torture forever. I know they would be devastated if they could feel what's happened

 

[Anon1337]

No. They don't like me.

 

[TheCrow]

Yes, but I feel more guilty by staying around. My parents have to support me financially, and I know that's not right. And now that I'm disabled, they have to lift a wheelchair in and out of their cars—and they are in their 60s. That's fucked up. I think my mom will be relieved when I'm gone.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Yes, but I feel more guilty by staying around. My parents have to support me financially, and I know that's not right. And now that I'm disabled, they have to lift a wheelchair in and out of their cars—and they are in their 60s. That's fucked up. I think my mom will be relieved when I'm gone.

I feel you... And I second that.. My father will also be relieved. I'm just too fucked up. I'm such a burden that he keeps threatening to throw me out. If I had a nickel for every time I've heard him say, "You've gotta go," then I'd have the money I need to ctb.

 

[TheCrow]

I feel you... And I second that.. My father will also be relieved. I'm just too fucked up. I'm such a burden that he keeps threatening to throw me out. If I had a nickel for every time I've heard him say, "You've gotta go," then I'd have the money I need to ctb.

Ugh, I'm sorry. I hope that that isn't true. That being said, when people say shit like that to me, it makes me want to ctb and leave a note like, "You told me to leave."

 

[Dani Paradox]

Ugh, I'm sorry. I hope that that isn't true. That being said, when people say shit like that to me, it makes me want to ctb and leave a note like, "You told me to leave."

That's basically how I feel. I mean, I want to ctb anyway... But with the way he acts and the things he says.... I feel like leaving a note that says "There! I quit drinking."

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Idgaf how they would feel anymore, they'll get over it.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Idgaf how they would feel anymore, they'll get over it.

This.

 

[Voldmort]

Very. I always come into internal conflict when I think about leaving this world happy or staying sad to make them happy.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I don't really care. Call me selfish, but my happiness comes first (as long as I'm not initiating violence against anybody). They chose to have a child, and I wasn't consulted. I don't like the place, and I want to leave. That's my inalienable right.

 

[Kirakishou]

My older sister is the only family I have, I visit her all the time. I want to spend as much time with her as possible before I go. I guess it's my way of saying goodbye, hopefully it will hurt her less this way.