KuriGohan&Kamehameha
想死不能 - 想活不能
- Nov 23, 2020
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Saw a similar post on the old a.s.h site that talked about how the values of the suicidal are just so vastly different than the norms of the cultures and societies we belong to.
i truly don't feel like i relate to anyone and feel distant from the world at large. Always was told its because of autism, but truthfully, it's because of my views. I frequently get into arguments with my bf as he finds my beliefs in things like antinatalism and right to euthanasia as radical and strange.
I've been told I was judgemental, arrogant, and presumptous for saying that i see many people as NPCs who never question their beliefs or view of the world, and that many people think with instinct alone and care about having a mini-me more than an adopted child who doesn't share their DNA. Same insults from my partner for saying i despise the current economic system and how it exploits the worker.
these same people will tell you life is a blessing and a gift while they have to sleepwalk through years of distractions and refuse to discuss difficult or taboo topics. I don't think i have some sage knowledge that no other meat sack on earth possesses, but ive experienced things that are so vastly different than the lived experiences of the majority and debunk 90% of people's views that certain problems can be solved, it's a mindset and not one's circumstances that are the issue, humans are inherently good, etc.
I've learned not to mention my pain anymore, because if you're suicidal, you're toxic. When I was younger I would cry for help and wish people cared for me, now I realize that my only option is to be isolated lest they punish me for "thinking wrong." who says their interpretation of life and death is the "right" one?
How am I supposed to relate to people and form bonds with them when my very convictions and values are asinine to them? When they laugh at us for being "pessimistic" but can't turn to face reality themselves? I can't wait to CTB and be free of this bullshit
i truly don't feel like i relate to anyone and feel distant from the world at large. Always was told its because of autism, but truthfully, it's because of my views. I frequently get into arguments with my bf as he finds my beliefs in things like antinatalism and right to euthanasia as radical and strange.
I've been told I was judgemental, arrogant, and presumptous for saying that i see many people as NPCs who never question their beliefs or view of the world, and that many people think with instinct alone and care about having a mini-me more than an adopted child who doesn't share their DNA. Same insults from my partner for saying i despise the current economic system and how it exploits the worker.
these same people will tell you life is a blessing and a gift while they have to sleepwalk through years of distractions and refuse to discuss difficult or taboo topics. I don't think i have some sage knowledge that no other meat sack on earth possesses, but ive experienced things that are so vastly different than the lived experiences of the majority and debunk 90% of people's views that certain problems can be solved, it's a mindset and not one's circumstances that are the issue, humans are inherently good, etc.
I've learned not to mention my pain anymore, because if you're suicidal, you're toxic. When I was younger I would cry for help and wish people cared for me, now I realize that my only option is to be isolated lest they punish me for "thinking wrong." who says their interpretation of life and death is the "right" one?
How am I supposed to relate to people and form bonds with them when my very convictions and values are asinine to them? When they laugh at us for being "pessimistic" but can't turn to face reality themselves? I can't wait to CTB and be free of this bullshit
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