Do you ever wonder what your love ones (if any) would think about your suicide?

[Reznor09]

I like to fantasize on how they'll all react when their "friend" and also "precious little child" (for my parents) is dead. I also feel like I would like them to be traumatized. Maybe then they'd understand how I really felt. I can't help but wonder if there are others thinking this.

 

[Deepdense]

They'd never be able to forget.

 

[SufferingDev]

Family - i dont give a f*** - its mostly their fault
My bf - he sees people dying every single day - will get over it
Friends - thats why I talk less and less with people

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

I like to fantasize on how they'll all react when their "friend" and also "precious little child" (for my parents) is dead. I also feel like I would like them to be traumatized. Maybe then they'd understand how I really felt. I can't help but wonder if there are others thinking this.

They will probably be scarred for life

 

[AngelTear]

I don't think anyone would care if I died tbh

 

[nails]

oh, a fellow Trent Reznor fan

but anyway, i think about this all the time. i really don't think my family would be that bothered. all the signs are there, i've outright told most of them that i want to die, they didn't seem to care that much after i was hospitalized after trying to hang myself. i think they'd use my death as an opportunity to act like victims, some of them would just use my suicide as a means of gaining sympathy from others. i don't think they'd be completely unfazed; they've known me for so long, after all. but i don't think they'd be too torn up about it.
i like to think that my death would make them understand how much i was suffering, maybe they'd even feel some remorse for things that they've done—but i know that won't be the case.
all my friends are gone and none of them will know that i'm dead, but i still wonder how they'd react if they found out. i really don't know what those reactions would look like.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Yes. It makes me kind of nauseous but so does being alive around them like this.
I'm mostly concerned about my niece & nephew but also more concerned about them growing up around a relative this mentally ill (me). atp with what I've seen they'll be in good hands without me.
I have no meaningful connections outside of my family besides online, but my few online friends hardly get to talk to me anymore. I think it would devastate them the most, but they'd also probably be the people most acutely aware that it wasn't their fault...whereas I was the black sheep of my family for years.
Mostly, I can't stand living like this, and it overrides everything else.