Do you ever think you personally live in a simulation meant to see how much suffering you can withstand before you break?

[Kramer]

I'm starting to really think that. I keep getting new health problems (not the virus) and it doesn't make any sense.

Maybe thinking this will make death easier as if upon death i'll wake up in another world. This life could be a training program.

 

[stygal]

That's such an awful and depressing thing to think. But for some (especially in this forum) it seems to be the reality. Hopefully you got something that gives you temporary relief and a bit of peace <3

 

[Mm80]

Im sad to hear about your suffering, i dont think we are in a simulation tbh

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Having problems in such a complex world is more likely than not having them. Don't have to be a simulation.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Sometimes I feel like everything is fake. Life feels like a dream. Other times, I feel like I'm trapped in Hell and being severely punished. Hugs

 

[Kramer]

Sometimes I feel like everything is fake. Life feels like a dream. Other times, I feel like I'm trapped in Hell and being severely punished. Hugs

Me too

 

[XYZ]

If we live in a simulation (and according the Neil Degrasse Tyson there's a 50/50 chance that we do), I don't think the simulation is constructed with me as the main character. I'm just a dot in a sea of dots. Equally insignificant as everyone else.

 

[Kramer]

If we live in a simulation (and according the Neil Degrasse Tyson there's a 50/50 chance that we do), I don't think the simulation is constructed with me as the main character. I'm just a dot in a sea of dots. Equally insignificant as everyone else.

Does he think we only exist in the simulation or outside of it as well?

 

[XYZ]

Does he think we only exist in the simulation or outside of it as well?

He says there are different scenarios. You can watch a very interesting conversation he has about this on Star Talk. It's available on YouTube.

 

[Kramer]

He says there are different scenarios. You can watch a very interesting conversation he has about this on Star Talk. It's available on YouTube.

One scenario we die and wake up in the real world?

 

[XYZ]

One scenario we die and wake up in the real world?

No. Sorry.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

It certainly feels that way some days. It is like a really bad save of The Sims - minus the exploding dishwashers and toilet thieves.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Whoever is playing my simulation really sucks at the game. Wish they'd just log off and go do something better with their lives.

 

[woxihuanni]

If it is, I only wish the player to turn my husband to wife beater/rapist rather than exterminating me at the Abomination's behest. I am not wishiny for anything good, you see, to be realistic. Cannot they be satisfied with breaking my bones/making me bleed a lot? It is OK if he takes out my bad eye, too, one is enough to serve him with. I don't know.

 

[Meditation guide]

We were put in these meat suits for SOME reason. I wish we had a clue why.

 

[Kramer]

We were put in these meat suits for SOME reason. I wish we had a clue why.

There's been around 10 billion humans in history. I don't know if there's a reason since that number is so large.

 

[imdone1]

At least then I'd blame myself less for ctb - if the whole point was to, anyways.

 

[Meditation guide]

There's been around 10 billion humans in history. I don't know if there's a reason since that number is so large.

We get bogged down in our thinking over big numbers but whatever is controlling things doesn't.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

There's been around 10 billion humans in history. I don't know if there's a reason since that number is so large.

more like 110 billion

 

[LastFlowers]

I don't actually think that but if that's the case then I must be on the high record board by now. This existence certainly does feel like someone's idea of a cruel joke or game.

 

[Viceroy]

Sometimes I feel like everything is fake. Life feels like a dream. Other times, I feel like I'm trapped in Hell and being severely punished. Hugs

Exactly

 

[Meditation guide]

This existence certainly does feel like someone's idea of a cruel joke or game.

Torture. Where is the off switch on this game.

 

[Giraffey]

If life is a simulation then I'm a bug in the code.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm starting to really think that. I keep getting new health problems (not the virus) and it doesn't make any sense.

Maybe thinking this will make death easier as if upon death i'll wake up in another world. This life could be a training program.

Wow this is weird I was thinking about making a thread like this a for several days and then you make one.

As I said I have been toying with the idea of this being a possibility and at some point even got curious to how much can I take, I am still hear so I am very curious how much it will take for me to brake, there has been many times I thought I couldn´t take more but I´m still here and haven´t even made a real attempt imo. And being such a failure I can´t help but feel that I must be very mentally strong since I can handle so much I have been through like if you put all my physical and mental problems on me at once years ago I would broken like a twig. Here is a list with most of my problems I might have forgotten some since I suffer from so many.

Colorblind
psoriasis which gets worse by each passing year especially this year it has gotten so bad I can´t hide it anymore it´s so bad on my scalp and eyebrows.
acid reflux
scoliosis
Back injury in the middle of my spine so I can never workout again not even run
allergic to almost everything I got tested for 30 foods only 4 I wasn´t allergic to
More allergies in spring and summer, Pollen allergy which makes it even harder to eat and I am scratching my eyes out everyday despite using allergy meds which I have to crush and drink in a glass of water because I can´t swallow pills even though this one is the size of a birth control pill.
I have a small and frail body so I easily strain something usually in my wrists I have 13.5cm wrist/5.3inches. so even when I was at my max weight and strengths when bodybuilding I couldn´t do pushups without straining my wrists.
Calcium deficiency since I can´t swallow or eat pills and am intolerant to milk so my nails look horrible
Throat problem being my worst problem that has ruined my life and forced me to exclude myself since it takes me 20 minutes just to eat a cheeseburger from Mc Donalds or 15 minutes to eat a piece of bread so I can´t go to school and get an education or work since the launch breaks are too short.
I have anxiety also the reason why my teeth look like shit since when I´m anxious I chew on my teeth not grind but chew, I used to have these two sharp teeth like a vampire which I was nicknamed Vamp by a few friends when I was Goth at 15 years old
Social anxiety
I am also on benzodiazepines due to anxiety but am tapering off it because my doctor said I had to and get on SSRI for anxiety instead if necessary
Got Aspergers Syndrome
Suffer from extreme Apathy and Anhedonia
EDIT: Peter Pan Syndrome too which is one of the worst ones weird I forgot that.

Also keep in mind all these illnesses/problems started or got progressively worse since I was 20½ years old and I´m 26 now. There might be more problems but as listed there are so many I can´t remember them all but I´m still here and as your thread said it do really feel like I live in a simulation to test how much I can handle.

 

[Kramer]

Wow this is weird I was thinking about making a thread like this a for several days and then you make one.

As I said I have been toying with the idea of this being a possibility and at some point even got curious to how much can I take, I am still hear so I am very curious how much it will take for me to brake, there has been many times I thought I couldn´t take more but I´m still here and haven´t even made a real attempt imo. And being such a failure I can´t help but feel that I must be very mentally strong since I can handle so much I have been through like if you put all my physical and mental problems on me at once years ago I would broken like a twig. Here is a list with most of my problems I might have forgotten some since I suffer from so many.

Colorblind
psoriasis which gets worse by each passing year especially this year it has gotten so bad I can´t hide it anymore it´s so bad on my scalp and eyebrows.
acid reflux
scoliosis
Back injury in the middle of my spine so I can never workout again not even run
allergic to almost everything I got tested for 30 foods only 4 I wasn´t allergic to
More allergies in spring and summer, Pollen allergy which makes it even harder to eat and I am scratching my eyes out everyday despite using allergy meds which I have to crush and drink in a glass of water because I can´t swallow pills even though this one is the size of a birth control pill.
I have a small and frail body so I easily strain something usually in my wrists I have 13.5cm wrist/5.3inches. so even when I was at my max weight and strengths when bodybuilding I couldn´t do pushups without straining my wrists.
Calcium deficiency since I can´t swallow or eat pills and am intolerant to milk so my nails look horrible
Throat problem being my worst problem that has ruined my life and forced me to exclude myself since it takes me 20 minutes just to eat a cheeseburger from Mc Donalds or 15 minutes to eat a piece of bread so I can´t go to school and get an education or work since the launch breaks are too short.
I have anxiety also the reason why my teeth look like shit since when I´m anxious I chew on my teeth not grind but chew, I used to have these two sharp teeth like a vampire which I was nicknamed Vamp by a few friends when I was Goth at 15 years old
Social anxiety
I am also on benzodiazepines due to anxiety but am tapering off it because my doctor said I had to and get on SSRI for anxiety instead if necessary
Got Aspergers Syndrome
Suffer from extreme Apathy and Anhedonia

Also keep in mind all these illnesses/problems started or got progressively worse since I was 20½ years old and I´m 26 now. There might be more problems but as listed there are so many I can´t remember them all but I´m still here and as your thread said it do really feel like I live in a simulation to test how much I can handle.

I'm not getting stronger though. My mind is breaking under the pressure.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm not getting stronger though. My mind is breaking under the pressure.

Trust me I don´t feel like I´m getting stronger at all but the problems just has gotten progressively worse over many years so as most humans do including people on this site we adapt until it becomes the new normal. And oddly I have felt less depressed for over a week I don´t know why maybe anhedonia and apathy is just so strong that I have reached the point of feeling nothing. I often read about people on here who say they attempted a method but I actually never do at least not what I consider a real attempt and I don´t know why I don´t, Many months ago I got over the guilt of how it would ruin my parents life so that is out of the way but still I am here.

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

If we live in a simulation (and according the Neil Degrasse Tyson there's a 50/50 chance that we do), I don't think the simulation is constructed with me as the main character. I'm just a dot in a sea of dots. Equally insignificant as everyone else.

you really think it's a possibility ?

We were put in these meat suits for SOME reason. I wish we had a clue why.

you think so?

 

[TooConscious]

I came to the conclusion there's no way of knowing anything to absolute. Maybe there are realms you have no clause that you question it, hard to put in to words. I'm saying yes I most certainly felt the world around me may well be manifesting as my state of mind, for example I will randomly think about someone from my childhood I haven't seen in years and they will appear, be it I will pass them, they would be recommended on messenger, they would be in the local paper....
This is a small example of situations that mess me up, I assume are intended to mess me up or try to prove to me there's much more to reality. Like the occult, I would have 100% called anyone weak minded who believed years ago, now I see I was the weak minded one.

Somethings at play...whether it's dark or light forces, or both... God's, or maybe I'm simply in a coma imagining a supernatural life whilst really in a dream in a 'real' one. Too many possibilities without way of knowing.

I've been confronted by people randomly in the street saying things like they're also spiritual and the universe drew us together for a conversation. This has only happened since me broadening my perspectives.

If it really is a game it's a shit cruel one. Nobody deserves what happened to me (and others) but as you say the point of your post is we're only sure of ourselves... Anyway... The suffering I experienced I believe ruined me and highly doubt anything could change it.

Im only here at the fear that this never ends and somehow we just go through it again, it's very irrational as like I say you can't know anything but I realize it's SI so I'm clearly still invested in this hell hole somehow.
I hate whatever is responsible for this, I believe hate is not an irrational human emotion I believe it is half the component of the universe, love and hate, I was denied love, yet men who rape/torture women and children, are generally abusive, steal from frail elderly, bully the defenceless... Majority of these sort enjoy their lives, they never get health issues like us.
The list goes on.
If that's not pure evil then what is.
Bible bashers and other false hope ego tripping false prophets "oh all these experiences are the balance of pure love, that's all the universe is... Pure love, don't you see! Open your eyes, just LOVE!!! FUCK OFF
These people are just as evil as the sadistic rapists, murdering bullies.

 

[yetme]

I'm starting to really think that. I keep getting new health problems (not the virus) and it doesn't make any sense.

Maybe thinking this will make death easier as if upon death i'll wake up in another world. This life could be a training program.

Hell yeah!! Same thing health problems and getting worse. Looks like I keep winning some shitty "health problems" lottery.

 

[Meditation guide]

I absolutely am aware this is a cruel test. There is no doubt at all. There has been one after the next, each one worse than the last one. They are thrown at me, each on the heels of the last test.