Venting Do you ever think about your own funeral?

[inkmage333]

Does anyone else here think about their own funeral? I've thought about it quite a lot, honestly. I mostly fantasize about how I'll lay in my casket, looking as pretty as the cosmetician could make my dead body look (I do want it to be open-casket) while everyone mourns how such a young soul could be taken too soon by mental illness.

I'm not really sure whether my friends would be there or not, or whether it'd just be a bunch of people from the church community my parents know about because I don't know whether my funeral would even be held near where I live, or whether my parents will have me buried in the cemetary that's very far away from home since basically every single person in our church community that died has been buried there for some reason. I'd like to think my friends would make the +1 hour-long journey to that cemetary, but then comes the problem of my parents knowing how to contact them, since they don't have their phone numbers.

Either way, I also think about the photos my family would choose for my funeral, where I look presentable in all of them. I think it'd make people sadder, because how can someone so young and pretty lose their life like this? I like that thought. I think I want people to be sad for me, to feel sorry for me.

And when my obituary is posted, with my photo, I like to think there'd be people once in my life searching up my name only to stumble upon the obituary. When they find out how I died, I like to think they'd think "what have I done? How could I leave [inkmage333's name] the way I did? Now they're dead and it's probably because I failed them!" That's the greatest part of all! Knowing they WILL think that because they all kept spewing bullshit like "I hope you become a better person and heal without me" as they left!

Anyways, does anyone else think about the way their own funeral would play out?

 

[Arvayn]

I'm studying thanatology, so it's been my job to learn about and understand funerals. It only makes sense I'd think about it at least once or twice.

I want to be left to rot, preferably for everyone to look at and see; to see the ugly truth of life and death. I do not want people to be sad for my death; I want them to be horrified of it, to experience some kind of reckoning through confrontation with the hideousness of my corpse. Of course, I know that that's not an option... my plan B is to be cremated and to be buried in a grave that is marked, and yet has nothing written on it. For from dust we came, and to dust we shall return.

 

[amor.dor]

To me, death is a state of total absence. So when I die, I wish only to be buried — without a funeral.

My family, which has always lived in conflict among itself, should not hold a service for me. I do not want my death to be used as an occasion for playing the victim or for weeping over their own pains. In life, people are rarely truly grateful for what others have given them. It is only in loss that they feel the weight of absence.

To me, the worms and plants that will feed on my flesh seem more grateful. Therefore, it is preferable that I simply be buried.

 

[dead dav]

Simple unattended cremation ashes put in the bin

 

[cakedog]

I don't want to have a funeral, specially with an open casket
thought about going with a gruesome method to leave my face disfigured and force my family to leave the lid closed but i don't have access to any
it's going to suck being surrounded and buried by people you don't want to and hate how my brother is going to be forced to attend it but maybe he'll get a day off so it's probably a positive

 

[kuroshimi]

Actually never thought about it.

It would be ideal to simply vanish, but unfortunately it's impossible. Despite this, idea of wanting people to be sad and feel sorry seems interesting?

Although, I still think that death is state of total nonexistence, so I not really into it.

 

[Unlucky777]

No. I don't want a funeral. Just burn my god damn body ASAP and send me away.

 

[soontobecorpse]

Does anyone else here think about their own funeral? I've thought about it quite a lot, honestly. I mostly fantasize about how I'll lay in my casket, looking as pretty as the cosmetician could make my dead body look (I do want it to be open-casket) while everyone mourns how such a young soul could be taken too soon by mental illness.

I'm not really sure whether my friends would be there or not, or whether it'd just be a bunch of people from the church community my parents know about because I don't know whether my funeral would even be held near where I live, or whether my parents will have me buried in the cemetary that's very far away from home since basically every single person in our church community that died has been buried there for some reason. I'd like to think my friends would make the +1 hour-long journey to that cemetary, but then comes the problem of my parents knowing how to contact them, since they don't have their phone numbers.

Either way, I also think about the photos my family would choose for my funeral, where I look presentable in all of them. I think it'd make people sadder, because how can someone so young and pretty lose their life like this? I like that thought. I think I want people to be sad for me, to feel sorry for me.

And when my obituary is posted, with my photo, I like to think there'd be people once in my life searching up my name only to stumble upon the obituary. When they find out how I died, I like to think they'd think "what have I done? How could I leave [inkmage333's name] the way I did? Now they're dead and it's probably because I failed them!" That's the greatest part of all! Knowing they WILL think that because they all kept spewing bullshit like "I hope you become a better person and heal without me" as they left!

Anyways, does anyone else think about the way their own funeral would play out?

i probably think about my own funeral way too often. I worry about my family picking lame music so I hope my friends handle that lol. i always wonder who would pretend they knew me or cared about me.

 

[BillyBob]

I do not want a funeral at all.
So what I have done is save up enough for my cremation instead.
Told my parents that I have money for my own cremation for when I die so they do not have to cover the costs. (Lets just say this did not go down well, my parents got really upset of just the thought of it. But managed to settle them down.)

Also have picked out a few songs for a Funeral if they decide to go that route. Have what I want done written in a note put on a USB with all the songs included and extras that need to be there for when I CTB.

 

[Exhausted546]

The idea of having a funeral puts me off fr. I hate that people will know I died from suicide, feels like I've let people that didn't like me win