Do you ever have the impulse to leave behind super petty notes?

[Lilanel]

I usually don't have the desire to leave the living with unnecessary pain—while writing my note, I've tried to minimize pain as much as possible. I have gone into this process with my eyes wide open, and I know the responsibility for this ultimately rests on me.

But...I'm human, right?

For my shitty, bully of an ex-boss, who called me "useless" several times and showed me just how petty and evil a person could be, I drafted a note that said "You should blame yourself, and I hope you do. The next time you see your daughter, think about what it would be like if she killed herself, and what you'd do to the person responsible for it."

For another person who did something shitty, I thought of sending them a note that said, "Thanks for giving me the strength to do what I've wanted to do all along!"

Ever drafted a petty note? Am I alone here?

 

[ProlongedSentence]

There all over the place.
Yes.
It has gotten that bad.
I believe in Evil and
It has ramped up.
God please forgive me but yes.
There most likely WILL be a negative Butterfly Effect
I wouldn't even know where to find mine to clean up and go - no answers as to why
They are all over the place.
God please forgive me for what I have done and am going to finally succumb to.
Please forgive me.

 

[weeks of the day]

Yep. I've wrote some very petty notes before, honestly.

 

[LastFlowers]

Yes, yes, and yes.

 

[Stan]

I have 2 notes for one particular person. 1 version is nice the other isn't. Still deciding......

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Yep. I've wrote some very petty notes before, honestly.

I don't believe they are petty.
I believe our voices should be heard.
Enough of the silencing by bullies.
Sure there will continue to be bullies and they will bully us even when we are gone.
Call us all sorts of names.
I. Personally have left a note outing a woman that shamed believers in Jesus Christ who have succumbed by saying about them - after they are gone - gone due to total hopelessness, despairation and despondency... "Well. We don't know if they really WERE true believers.
Yep.
She is in my note.
She and her husband are shamers.
They are haters as well.
Her husband is a so called "pastor" of a "church."
A "church" where they espew their hatred from their Tax Differed pulpit, love taking in the vulnerable just as long as they follow along like "good" little lambs and...
Worship THEM.
Don't forget that.
These people are not only sick but they are narcissistic to the point of getting VERY angry when you question them enough with enough very smart and scripture questions based on actualy knowlege of the scripture.
But it was like fighting a losing game.
These people pick and chose their scripture to justify their hate.
Well. I happen to know enough about scripture and these people WILL have to answer to God.

 

[gingerplum]

I usually don't have the desire to leave the living with unnecessary pain—while writing my note, I've tried to minimize pain as much as possible. I have gone into this process with my eyes wide open, and I know the responsibility for this ultimately rests on me.

But...I'm human, right?

For my shitty, bully of an ex-boss, who called me "useless" several times and showed me just how petty and evil a person could be, I drafted a note that said "You should blame yourself, and I hope you do. The next time you see your daughter, think about what it would be like if she killed herself, and what you'd do to the person responsible for it."

For another person who did something shitty, I thought of sending them a note that said, "Thanks for giving me the strength to do what I've wanted to do all along!"

Ever drafted a petty note? Am I alone here?

Girl, write that shit down; it's cathartic. Do it just for you. Make your very own burn book, then literally burn it.

But don't leave anything petty or vindictive behind. Do not give one single, shitty person even the suggestion of an idea they could use to say, yup, I was right about that Lilanel... she was an unhinged bitch, and we're better off without her.

That's just me, because I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Girl, write that shit down; it's cathartic. Do it just for you. Make your very own burn book, then literally burn it.

But don't leave anything petty or vindictive behind. Do not give one single, shitty person even the suggestion of an idea they could use to say, yup, I was right about that Lilanel... she was an unhinged bitch, and we're better off without her.

That's just me, because I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.

Yeah. It assumes they care. I agree. But I am not using the energy to find mine. It had to be said. This woman is pure Evil. A Negative Butterfly Effct will undoubetly happen but I do not believe in society's gag rules. They sure as heck aren't gagged when they bad mouth those who have succumbed.

 

[gingerplum]

Yeah. It assumes they care. I agree. But I am not using the energy to find mine. It had to be said. This woman is pure Evil. A Negative Butterfly Effct will undoubetly happen but I do not believe in society's gag rules. They sure as heck aren't gagged when they bad mouth those who have succumbed.

Fair enough. In that case, I'd probably want all of the people close to them to know exactly what kind of shitty person they are. Got any dirt or info that could potentially be embarrassing? Let everyone know. Take out a local ad. Hire a sky writer. No judgement if this restores some of your inner peace or feeling of dignity in your last few days!

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Fair enough. In that case, I'd probably want all of the people close to them to know exactly what kind of shitty person they are. Got any dirt or info that could potentially be embarrassing? Let everyone know. Take out a local ad. Hire a sky writer. No judgement if this restores some of your inner peace or feeling of dignity in your last few days!

It's about outing her use of a Non For Profit "church" to spew hate, brainwash, and try and get people to write the church in their Wills(Yes. She did) and I did. I had to go BACK to the lawyer to get her OFF. She wanted to be Executrix. But when she spewed hate about my challenged dd I snapped out of it.
Please do not be sarcastic with my situation. I want this woman and her husband STOPPED. It's justa note. As back up to my second corrected Will. So my intentions are well known. This woman has no place being Executrix over my will. I was not her and her husband's first target. Unfortunately they have succeeded in getting many to leave their "church" LOTS of money. ALL of their money. Even leave out their children for THEM. And they USE the money to buy things like CARS and gifts for themselves... and gain more power. Please do not make fun.

If anything. I just want their pulpit of HATE knocked down. Most likely it won't be but. I will NOT be gagged. I have been long enough.

Do you prefer people left behind to ask all the questions WHY? That is how society gags. It is a mass gag order to those in utter hopelessness.

 

[gingerplum]

It's about outing her use of a Non For Profit "church" to spew hate, brainwash, and try and get people to write the church in their Wills(Yes. She did) and I did. I had to go BACK to the lawyer to get her OFF. She wanted to be Executrix. But when she spewed hate about my challenged dd I snapped out of it.
Please do not be sarcastic with my situation. I want this woman and her husband STOPPED. It's justa note. As back up to my second corrected Will. So my intentions are well known. This woman has no place being Executrix over my will. I was not her and her husband's first target. Unfortunately they have succeeded in getting many to leave their "church" LOTS of money. ALL of their money. Even leave out their children for THEM. And they USE the money to buy things like CARS and gifts for themselves... and gain more power. Please do not make fun.

If anything. I just want their pulpit of HATE knocked down. Most likely it won't be but. I will NOT be gagged. I have been long enough.

Do you prefer people left behind to ask all the questions WHY? That is how society gags. It is a mass gag order to those in utter hopelessness.

Whoa. I was not trying to be sarcastic or even glib; I was being conversant and I often use gentle humor to add a bit of levity to a difficult situation. No one was "making fun" of you or your situation. I'm clearly out of my depth here, so I'll wish you well and sign off.

 

[Look34r]

Hey ProlongedSentence. May I message you privately somehow?

 

[Look34r]

I don't know how this site works. Can you message me ProlongedSentence?

 

[Look34r]

I have nothing to add. I apologize.

 

[wendydong1]

I usually don't have the desire to leave the living with unnecessary pain—while writing my note, I've tried to minimize pain as much as possible. I have gone into this process with my eyes wide open, and I know the responsibility for this ultimately rests on me.

But...I'm human, right?

For my shitty, bully of an ex-boss, who called me "useless" several times and showed me just how petty and evil a person could be, I drafted a note that said "You should blame yourself, and I hope you do. The next time you see your daughter, think about what it would be like if she killed herself, and what you'd do to the person responsible for it."

For another person who did something shitty, I thought of sending them a note that said, "Thanks for giving me the strength to do what I've wanted to do all along!"

Ever drafted a petty note? Am I alone here?

how does your ex boss even gonna receive your notes?

 

[BPD_LE]

Yes. People need to know how much their actions and words have affected me. I take responsibility for the final act but just so they know, they handed me the noose.

 

[Lilanel]

how does your ex boss even gonna receive your notes?

Delayed emails, but of course!

I joke, she'll never see it. I was really hurt by what happened and I was in a bad place when I wrote these, as with all of my petty notes! They get destroyed, usually.

 

[Tabbyql]

I get a massive urge to do this, but like #prolongedsentence said it's just assuming they care. And I know for sure they don't. Guess for me it's just to make me feel better, my 1st and only chance to say what i want to say.

 

[GoingSoonish]

Not going to do it but i have fantasized about something like this for one person in particular.

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

I feel like if I leave behind petty notes or anything that says honestly how I feel, which I can imagine would cause others to get angry, it might cause my attempt to fail. Which is absurd, really. But it really feels like my life is a series of interconnected events where my behavior that causes pain or discomfort to others results in bad things happening to me as punishment.

 

[color_me_gone]

I feel like if I leave behind petty notes or anything that says honestly how I feel, which I can imagine would cause others to get angry, it might cause my attempt to fail. Which is absurd, really. But it really feels like my life is a series of interconnected events where my behavior that causes pain or discomfort to others results in bad things happening to me as punishment.

Yeah, I know the feeling, sort of like karma is following you around everywhere, and going to punish you for even the most petty things. Murphy also follows me around - if anything bad can happen, it WILL.

 

[TiredOfLife95]

Yes, I'd like to leave a very petty note because a lot of people ruined me and they're the cause of my depression.
A lot of people hurted me and these same person would be happy if I die, that's why I feel bad to ctb but I don't want to fight anymore to have a decent life...I'm so tired.

 

[Hyakkimaru]

literally right now

 

[H2H2]

No way Im leaving petty notes behind to those who mistreat me or took advantage of me. Its either indifference or leaving pictures of me having a blast and smiling to the camera. Im leaning towards indifference because Im fed up of being angry and holding grievances. Besides I think I deserve it to some extent. The saying "fool me one , fool me twice" or something along those lines rings more true the more I reflect on my life.

In my lifetime I have witness the aftermath of three deaths and there was always some reframing of the death and the deceased going on. People are going to feel and think of you whatever they want to once you have left. Its out of your control.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I usually don't have the desire to leave the living with unnecessary pain—while writing my note, I've tried to minimize pain as much as possible. I have gone into this process with my eyes wide open, and I know the responsibility for this ultimately rests on me.

But...I'm human, right?

For my shitty, bully of an ex-boss, who called me "useless" several times and showed me just how petty and evil a person could be, I drafted a note that said "You should blame yourself, and I hope you do. The next time you see your daughter, think about what it would be like if she killed herself, and what you'd do to the person responsible for it."

For another person who did something shitty, I thought of sending them a note that said, "Thanks for giving me the strength to do what I've wanted to do all along!"

Ever drafted a petty note? Am I alone here?

Yes I think about that. I want to leave notes to my doctors who have failed me and to family members who never took my physical pain seriously. But I'm not giving my family the satisfaction to think I was thinking about them in such a bad time. But the doctors are definitely going to hear from me.

 

[Morphinekiss]

If I start writing petty notes that's when I know I'm being irrational and it's not time for me to ctb yet. It feels good to get it all out though, then I torch the notes and take a few days to reflect.

 

[Etherealdignity333]

Would I ever leave any of the Zingers when I left? Nah.

Have I written and thought of plenty? Ab-so-fucking-lutely

 

[Nem]

I think just mentioning that my life was ruined by crap meds and an equally crappy dr. Wrapped up with a control freak ex that helped together cause a horrific reaction to dangerous meds that literally destroyed my life as I knew it
Peac/hugs