Do you ever feel protective of other depressed loved ones even though you want to CTB?

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

Do you ever have loved ones who are depressed or even want to CTB, but you don't wish for them to go to such lengths even though you want to CTB as well?

For me I had 2 ex-lovers who were (still are) depressed and even have thoughts of ending it when it gets overwhelming. But it pains me to see them like this even today. To me I see their potential in being amazing people, they have talent, they have nice friends and family, they didn't do horrible stuff. Meanwhile I have a good reason to CTB because I am very sure shit I did during my teenage years could've or have caused harm to people.

It just hurts seeing people I love feel like this when they still have potential, While I'm here just waiting for the perfect time to give myself justice.

 

[Vizzy]

Hi hope you are okay

 

[Lonelyhotcake]

My mom, she is fuck*ng depressed even if she doesn't want to admit it... (she just says "I'm tired" but then spends all day watching TV and doing absolutely nothing).

I take care of her but I'm fuck*ng tired.

If I try to ask for professional help they freak out (they are religious).

 

[SoftWorries]

Do you ever have loved ones who are depressed or even want to CTB, but you don't wish for them to go to such lengths even though you want to CTB as well?

For me I had 2 ex-lovers who were (still are) depressed and even have thoughts of ending it when it gets overwhelming. But it pains me to see them like this even today. To me I see their potential in being amazing people, they have talent, they have nice friends and family, they didn't do horrible stuff. Meanwhile I have a good reason to CTB because I am very sure shit I did during my teenage years could've or have caused harm to people.

It just hurts seeing people I love feel like this when they still have potential, While I'm here just waiting for the perfect time to give myself justice.

Do you ever have loved ones who are depressed or even want to CTB, but you don't wish for them to go to such lengths even though you want to CTB as well?

For me I had 2 ex-lovers who were (still are) depressed and even have thoughts of ending it when it gets overwhelming. But it pains me to see them like this even today. To me I see their potential in being amazing people, they have talent, they have nice friends and family, they didn't do horrible stuff. Meanwhile I have a good reason to CTB because I am very sure shit I did during my teenage years could've or have caused harm to people.

It just hurts seeing people I love feel like this when they still have potential, While I'm here just waiting for the perfect time to give myself justice.

Yes I don't want them to be gone from this world. I want them to find joy and wellness in life.

The only reason why I'm able to talk openly on here is the degree of separation the forum provides. If it was someone I loved telling me they wanted to ctb I would be heartbroken.

Every person I love is worthy of an incredible existence without any pain or fear. I've removed everyone else out of my life. My loved ones are my reason to exist in a literal sense. I want them to be well and to live.

 

[Hirokami]

It's funny. I think about CTB pretty much all the time and yet I wouldn't want those in my life to CTB, either. But then, I suppose that's normal; it would be odd to want really anyone to CTB, let alone loved ones.