Spidermanspiderpoo
Member
- Aug 23, 2022
- 36
I know, I know, the title sounds like something you've probably heard a million times.
It's just, I don't know, the feeling when you have people you talk to everyday and it's not really a dry conversation either but you can't ever feel any love. It's that gaping hole in my heart that refuses to close or accept any possible explanation other than the fact that I am not loved. At this point, I would even settle to be hated. I don't want to be transparent anymore. I don't want to be irrelevant. I don't want to be.... invisible. It's not even that I'm overthinking things. It really is like that. None of my friends seem to give a half ass shit about me. I see my own helplessness and desperation in trying to do things for them. "Maybe if I do this for them, they'll love me. Maybe if I make something for them, they'll love me. Maybe if I tell them I love them, they might as least pretend to love me." I'm tired... I want to be loved. I want to be loved. I want to be loved.
It's just, I don't know, the feeling when you have people you talk to everyday and it's not really a dry conversation either but you can't ever feel any love. It's that gaping hole in my heart that refuses to close or accept any possible explanation other than the fact that I am not loved. At this point, I would even settle to be hated. I don't want to be transparent anymore. I don't want to be irrelevant. I don't want to be.... invisible. It's not even that I'm overthinking things. It really is like that. None of my friends seem to give a half ass shit about me. I see my own helplessness and desperation in trying to do things for them. "Maybe if I do this for them, they'll love me. Maybe if I make something for them, they'll love me. Maybe if I tell them I love them, they might as least pretend to love me." I'm tired... I want to be loved. I want to be loved. I want to be loved.