SimplyTopHat

SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
When I'm particularly stressed out my thoughts of suicide take center stage. I mean, I think about suicide every day but when I'm stressed it spills over into every aspect of my life, even my sleep.

During the last dream that I remember, I had the unfortunate pleasure of watching the people in my life grieve (Unfinished business kinda floating around). Ugh. I woke up anxious as all hell &frustrated- it's my choice, why do I need to care how it'll make them feel?

I mean, how often do they really reach out to see how I'm feeling?
:hmph:
 
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InTheAirTonight

InTheAirTonight

I tried
Feb 29, 2020
475
I had a dream recently that I was in a department store and found nembutal being sold on one of the shelves. Happiest dream I ever had.
 
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mesohappy

mesohappy

Cat piss sammich??
Jan 10, 2020
674
I never die in my dreams...I do things and think that I am going too,but live through it..Ive dreamed about jumping/falling off of cliffs,full of fear,only to hit the ground and get up unscathed..Recently dreamed someone emptied a full clip into me and I was covered in blood,scared,but still walking around and conversating with people.

Its more of a fear thing in my dreams it seems...Deadly situations,deathly fear,then surviving.

The worst are being tortured and not dying,but even in those,I dont feel pain...Just the fear of whats happening.Maybe my personal hell is fear.(?)
 
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Hollow Point

Hollow Point

A̵l̷w̷a̷y̸s̷ ̷t̸i̸r̵e̸d̶
Mar 24, 2020
120
I always wake up right before the moment I die. Most dreams I have are stressful. Usually always have to try and survive something, but never die. Sometimes right before I'm about to die, I realize I'm dreaming and can wake myself up. One time I even brought up a pause screen in my vision and hit exit, then woke up lol
 
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eksded

Member
Apr 3, 2020
44
Well not really, I mostly dream about mundane stuff. But every morning I wake up I feel like shit for being alive.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
All the time, and usually by most ridiculous and painful methods. Nightmares 24/7/365
Still doesnt make me reconsider thinking about death from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep
 
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Ardesevent

Ardesevent

It’s the end of the line, cowboy
Feb 2, 2020
358
I have dreams about being murdered, instead of committing suicide for some reason. One time a dog bit my head off, and other I was just stabbed in the chest a few times.
 
SimplyTopHat

SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
I have dreams about being murdered, instead of committing suicide for some reason. One time a dog bit my head off, and other I was just stabbed in the chest a few times.

When I was younger, I used dream of being murdered, though most often it was because I was trying to save someone else.
Dog? Whoa. That's an interesting dream.
 
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
Yesterday I had a dream about the day I jumped. Every little detail. When I woke up and checked my phone it was 11th April - exactly 6 years from then
It freaked me out a bit :/
 
SimplyTopHat

SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
Yesterday I had a dream about the day I jumped. Every little detail. When I woke up and checked my phone it was 11th April - exactly 6 years from then
It freaked me out a bit :/
Dreaming of a previous attempt? Wow, how did that feel when you woke up?
 
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
Dreaming of a previous attempt? Wow, how did that feel when you woke up?

I had dreams like that before so it didnt shock me. What was freaky was the date, and that after I relived everything the scene changed to me surrounded by my classmates, taunting me and telling me Im faking my illness, and me murdering them. And just as I was going to be arrested, I somehow made my way back to the bridge and jumped again. And it looked e x a c t l y like the day I did it, again. And I died and then jumped again, and again, and again, and felt every bit of it. Really fucking freaky. Maybe Im possessed or something
 
Ougizh

Ougizh

Member
Apr 9, 2020
53
I always wake up right before the moment I die. Most dreams I have are stressful. Usually always have to try and survive something, but never die. Sometimes right before I'm about to die, I realize I'm dreaming and can wake myself up. One time I even brought up a pause screen in my vision and hit exit, then woke up lol
Wow i did the same when I don't want to stay in a dream
 
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s1mplem3

Arcanist
Mar 4, 2020
454
Usually I don't have dreams but if I have it's nightmares.
 
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the coward

New Member
Jul 15, 2019
1
im terrified of fire and so i have this reoccurring dream that the only way i can die is by setting myself on fire
 

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