Discussion Do you depend on others socially?

[Eren]

I mean, are you alone and would you like to have more social life or do you like to be alone? Although it seems incredible, there are people who like to be alone, in my case loneliness is one of my reasons for CTB.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

I don't know anyone can stay sane being lonely and not even have one person.
I have horrible social anxiety so therefore not able to make friends, cause i stay far and distant and they assume im shallow and a bitch.and it kills me bc i really wish i could.
Irs also one if the many reasons i wanna CTB too

 

[21Neberg]

Loneliness is something I've talked about often on here - it's just horrible. Social media these days just makes it so much worse when you can see people you know going out and having fun when you're alone. I do think that if I had better social skills and a better social life that maybe I wouldn't be as miserable.

 

[Xaphous]

I don't even have a conversation with anyone in real life. I used to like to be alone, it was a coping mechanism that I could deal with but as the years progressed the suffering just increases 100fold every month to year. I made a huge trap for myself that I saw no way out of 10 years ago and that hole is even deeper now there is no light.

 

[RottenOdysseus]

I'm a weird mixture of I like to be alone and I rely socially on others but am not lonely. I like socializing like once every month or 2 but would prefer to just keep it at that.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Thought provoking question @Eren
I know I've said this before but I do feel blessed that irl I have nice friends who live nearby and pop in all the time and we go out together - though the thing with depression is wanting to hide away and isolate yourself and it's a weird counter-productive thing as I think that's when you need people more.

When I feel particularly sad and ignore the doorbell and want to hide away and not talk to anyone that's when I get more unwell and each day that goes by gets harder and harder to see people as then they start asking questions.

It's a vicious circle

 

[Eren]

Thought provoking question @Eren
I know I've said this before but I do feel blessed that irl I have nice friends who live nearby and pop in all the time and we go out together - though the thing with depression is wanting to hide away and isolate yourself and it's a weird counter-productive thing as I think that's when you need people more.

When I feel particularly sad and ignore the doorbell and want to hide away and not talk to anyone that's when I get more unwell and each day that goes by gets harder and harder to see people as then they start asking questions.

It's a vicious circle

It's true, loneliness is disgusting and more so when you have depression, it makes you even more depressed.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I have professional acquaintances only. This seems increasingly common to me. I thought it would be different in other parts of the world. But my travels showed me that alienation is becoming pandemic. We publish articles about it but no one's really doing anything about it. Maybe because it matters more to us to be free to associate with those we like.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I would love to have friends but social anxiety, low-self worth, lack of communication ability, flat affect and queerness made it impossible. I had girl friends in childhood and was totally lonely until 27 y.o. when I met my SO.
It's really hard for me to connect with people now because my experience is so different from their and even if someone I like tryes to I always sabotage it because I am afraid of rejection and don't feel good enough.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I only really have my gf and my dad in my life. I don't have any friends and I only ever speak to a few other family members sporadically. I like to be alone, for the most part, but do need that little bit of interaction just to keep me sane. Just kidding, I'm not sane.

 

[Taylored]

I depend on family for all my social needs. But I also prefer not having them around.

 

[SMarie1204]

I'm more or less completely alone. I live with my mother, but even though we're in the same house we don't speak. Everyone else is dead. My insecurities have ruined a lot of my friendships. I went through a phase where I thought, if I'm going to ctb I don't want it to be a big deal, so I basically disappeared so when the time came, no one would really know or care. It's lonely but I'm getting used to it. I'm friendly to people on the street, have a few acquaintances but the only time it really hurts is when I think of my family. Otherwise, it's just better for everyone.

 

[OkTotti]

I'm more or less completely alone. I live with my mother, but even though we're in the same house we don't speak. Everyone else is dead. My insecurities have ruined a lot of my friendships. I went through a phase where I thought, if I'm going to ctb I don't want it to be a big deal, so I basically disappeared so when the time came, no one would really know or care. It's lonely but I'm getting used to it. I'm friendly to people on the street, have a few acquaintances but the only time it really hurts is when I think of my family. Otherwise, it's just better for everyone.

Hi, I'm in NYC also. Please message me when you're able to. I think you can send Private Message if you posted at least 5 times

 

[lululoo]

I'm more or less completely alone. I live with my mother, but even though we're in the same house we don't speak. Everyone else is dead. My insecurities have ruined a lot of my friendships. I went through a phase where I thought, if I'm going to ctb I don't want it to be a big deal, so I basically disappeared so when the time came, no one would really know or care. It's lonely but I'm getting used to it. I'm friendly to people on the street, have a few acquaintances but the only time it really hurts is when I think of my family. Otherwise, it's just better for everyone.

You live with each other but don't speak at all? That sounds horrible. I'm sorry.

 

[Grey-zone]

You live with each other but don't speak at all? That sounds horrible. I'm sorry.

I've lived with the 'rents my entire life, and can confirm that familiarity breeds contempt. After a certain point, your mother or father starts seeming like a room-mate.

 

[SMarie1204]

You live with each other but don't speak at all? That sounds horrible. I'm sorry.

My older sister passed away and I'm the fuck up of the family so I really feel that she wishes I was gone. I can see it. There are no good mornings, hey how was your day. Nothing. It hurts but what doesn't at this point? She's my only family, so I take what I can get.

 

[SMarie1204]

I've lived with the 'rents my entire life, and can confirm that familiarity breeds contempt. After a certain point, your mother or father starts seeming like a room-mate.

Exactly..I had this fantasy that parents love their children unconditionally but it's just not true. Some families are strong but mine has been through so much I think we're all tired. She'd never kill herself but she knows I would and she still either ignores me or just fights/insults me. She knows she's pushing me. I know if I killed myself a part of her would be relieved, so yeah. That's that. She shouldn't have to deal with me anymore, she's lived her life. So I don't mind.

 

[Minudah]

Why would anyone depend on anyone socially? Grown humans in the simulation, regardless of whether they're experimenters or lab rats, don't experience loneliness. I'm the only adult human in the simulation who's lonely because I'm the worst lab rat. The experimenters created the simulation as a torture experiment, they torture lab rats while lab rats kill each other. Everyone is out to cause as much harm as they can. The only reason they get up every day is the joy they get from spending all their tine trying to harm others. Everyone is evil

 

[CFLoser]

only my (online) bf.

Otherwise im a lone wolf >:)