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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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SInce I am taking my medication my ability to cry decreased. Though I get tears in my eyes sometimes in usual situations. When I am sad I usually don't cry. When I am extremely desperate and overbburdened I cry sometimes intensively. But often only for a short time. This has changed since I am taking medication. There are some positive and negative things about that. But the positive effects are probably bigger.
When I hear sad stories I often rather get angry about the society, the life in general, ignorant people, a theoretical God who could exist.
I tried to find a pattern when I am crying. And I think I have found the main reason. It was not that obvious to find I had to watch my behavior. My main reason is more induced by my unconsciousness. When I see in series an happy ending I cry. Especially when it is a series with nostalgia of my childhood or time as a teenager. It just reminds me of my naivity when I was a child. I thought everything will be fine someday. Everything will be also fine for me someday. Life was fair. And there will also be an happy end for me.
Though when I now re-watch these series I am really disaffected. Many dreams of my childhood don't become true. Life was very unfair for me. I get punished for being abused. When I was young I thought there was justice in this world. Now when I see how my life turned out and everything becomes more desperate I am just pissed and sad.
I wish I could believe again in this thinking there will be an happy end for everyone and life is fair. But life disappointed me too deeply.
Which triggers your crying?
When I hear sad stories I often rather get angry about the society, the life in general, ignorant people, a theoretical God who could exist.
I tried to find a pattern when I am crying. And I think I have found the main reason. It was not that obvious to find I had to watch my behavior. My main reason is more induced by my unconsciousness. When I see in series an happy ending I cry. Especially when it is a series with nostalgia of my childhood or time as a teenager. It just reminds me of my naivity when I was a child. I thought everything will be fine someday. Everything will be also fine for me someday. Life was fair. And there will also be an happy end for me.
Though when I now re-watch these series I am really disaffected. Many dreams of my childhood don't become true. Life was very unfair for me. I get punished for being abused. When I was young I thought there was justice in this world. Now when I see how my life turned out and everything becomes more desperate I am just pissed and sad.
I wish I could believe again in this thinking there will be an happy end for everyone and life is fair. But life disappointed me too deeply.
Which triggers your crying?
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