Do you care what will happen to you after you die?

[noname223]

Some artists and philosophers got famous after they died. I think Nietzsche was one but I am not sure. I think Kafka too. They never experienced their success because it happened postmortem. Do you care what will happen after you die? For example what will happen to your body or what the people will say at your funeral? Are you scared that they might do an autopsy?

In the past it thought it would be somehow cool to get famous after I die. But I don't really have any art or skill that could make that happen. Maybe getting an award for the biggest whiny loser that ever lived on earth. Lol. I don't really care what they do to make corpse. Maybe not abusing or raping it by a freak. But I don't really care whether I will be burnt (immolated) or if the worms eat it in my grave. I rather hope I will be forgotten. Maybe that my friends remember one or two good jokes of me. I am somewhat scared some relatives could insult me in front of my friends at my hypothetical funeral. How I could do this to my parents? (who fucking abused me...) How could I be so selfish?

I don't want to traumatize anyone with my suicide. But it could happen. One very sick scenario would be the following: My sister wants to procreate. I have some time up to my suicide. It is almost impossible to avoid it but I can postpone it for a while and run away from my problems. I am somewhat scared I will do it when this child is very young. The parents will come from two families with A LOT OF mental issues. When she gets the baby (which could be in some years) I try to have barely contact with it. I absolutely don't want to fuck up the life of this potential human being even further.

I think some artists got more attention because they committed suicide. Like Kurt Cobain or David Foster Wallace. Maybe this adulation of them is not good. Despite the fact I probably would not have read DFW's work without knowing about his suicide. To me it seems like he always anticipated his suicide in his works.

 

[Foresight]

I don't know DFW but from what little I have read it seems he struggled for years and was physically deteriorating from mental illness at the end. That friend's response seems to be a typical selfish response to me. Really ungraceful.

I don't care what happens to this body after I cease. This body hasn't been me in a very long time. I only care about getting my pets taken care of and cushioning the pain for my spouse.

 

[noname223]

I don't know DFW but from what little I have read it seems he struggled for years and was physically deteriorating from mental illness at the end. That friend's response seems to be a typical selfish response to me. Really ungraceful.

I don't care what happens to this body after I cease. This body hasn't been me in a very long time. I only care about getting my pets taken care of and cushioning the pain for my spouse.

I changed the part about DFW a little bit because I wanted to make a seperate thread about it. But thx for your reply.

 

[LostAllHope88]

I've had suicidal ideation for most of my life, so for a long time I obsessed over this—What will people think? Should I get rid of the things I wouldn't want people to see like embarrassing photos? What will my lifeless body look like? Is it going to make people want to vomit? Who will be at my funeral? Will people still think about me? Have I left behind anything of value to the living? What kind of impact will I have left on those I leave behind? Will it destroy my mom?

But more recently…I've taken solace in the fact that life is not guaranteed. Any of us could die at any moment with no time to prepare. A few years ago I could never have predicted a pandemic would be coming that would end so many lives in such a short period of time. I didn't think my mom would choose to CTB before me. I think her choice to do it erased the final barrier I had, and now seeing how everyone else has gotten on with their lives, I know that with or without me things will continue on. I'm just an average person with an average life, never achieved anything great and probably won't be considered much after death.

It feels good to be free of all that worry and to just embrace the unknown. Whatever happens to the body I leave behind, I guess I won't know so it doesn't really matter to me.

 

[downsolong]

in relation to other people, i do not care what happens after i die. i sometimes believe that there is a part of my self that i don't perceive in reality which might exist after i 'die'. sometimes i care about that, not always in the same way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not care what happens as I will not be alive at that point. It is not my concern, I will be gone. When I die it will be the end of me. I do hope nobody remembers me and I would like to be completely forgotten. In an ideal world I would love to just completely disappear, like I have never existed in the first place.

 

[Looooser]

I just don't want to be box of ashes in the closet. Seems like most of the people I know that have been cremated are just sitting in the closet. I've thought it might be cool to have my ashes turned into pottery or something like that. I don't have a place to call "home" so I doubt I'd ever do a burial. I have joked that it would be cool if my funeral or wake was next to a lake and the boatman came for me. Maybe like a remote control boatman.... Then just set my body on fire like a Viking funeral as it gets to the middle of the lake.

I've recently been thinking that it should be my relatives/friends decision. I'll be gone but they'll still be here to deal with the aftermath like the anniversary of my death so if they'd rather have me buried so they can visit me or something like that then I'm good with that.

 

[olkf]

I do care a bit, it is perfectly reasonable to worry about it until it happens.