Do you also feel not in control?

[throwaway123]

I feel like I don't have any control in my life. It's like everything in my life is beyond my control...it's almost like there is a destiny. No not in the religious sense. I mean like it's as if I don't have a free will.

I just feel so helpless. I desperately wanted to change things but I was unable to do so due to outside factors that are beyond my control.

Maybe someone here can relate to that. I used to strictly deny something like "destiny,fate,etc..." but the older I get the more I start questioning if there is actually free will

 

[QueenEtna]

Yeah I do. When I think about the future I just feel so helpless and get the overbearing urge to end it all.

 

[Taylored]

I feel helpless too part of my brain wants me to die and the other half refuses to let me do anything to accomplish that.

 

[Lunar]

I can relate. I feel like life/society is set up in such a way where we don't have control. There are things we apparently must do whether we like it or not, but I personally refuse to accept that. It's a lose lose situation in my opinion. We're also a slave to our bodily functions.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

The whole thing feels like a giant prison camp, almost all land is off limits, wall to wall asphalt, its crushing to the spirit.

 

[wiIIow]

I know what you mean. for a long time I've felt like I'm just an observer in my own life, like watching a movie except I'm experiencing all these horrible sensations against my will. I never know where my mental state is going to be in the next 5 minutes; I've been told I'm unpredictable, but the thing is even I rarely know what I'm going to do next. I don't remember what it feels like to be in control. it's a nightmare

 

[RM5998]

I feel like I don't have any control in my life. It's like everything in my life is beyond my control...it's almost like there is a destiny. No not in the religious sense. I mean like it's as if I don't have a free will.

I just feel so helpless. I desperately wanted to change things but I was unable to do so due to outside factors that are beyond my control.

Maybe someone here can relate to that. I used to strictly deny something like "destiny,fate,etc..." but the older I get the more I start questioning if there is actually free will

Well, free will can't be real. We are deterministic systems describable by physics in near total certainty, only affected by the limits of the uncertainty principle. Field fluctuations proposed by extensions of the same principle are the only fluctuations present.

As I like to say, we only have a chance, not a choice.

 

[Maravillosa]

I often feel as if I am not in control of my life, that fate is controlling me. This is supposed to be an indicator that one has double depression (persistent depressive disorder [dysthymia] + major depression). Indeed, my current psych diagnoses are dysthymia, major depression with psychotic features and PTSD, so I fit right in:

https://www.webmd.com/depression/double-depression#3-7

People with dysthymia often feel as though they have little or no control over their own life. The feeling is that something else -- fate or other people -- are responsible for the course of their lives. This is not a typical feeling for people with major depression with no underlying dysthymia.​

https://anxietyscope.com/double-depression/

Individuals with double depression frequently feel as they have no control over their own personal life. The feeling is somewhat unique such as intention with other individuals, during the control course of their lives. This isn't a regular feeling for an individual having significant unhappiness with no important sign of double depression.
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https://www.news-medical.net/news/2007/07/24/27964.aspx

In addition to differences in the level of hopelessness, the researchers found that people with dysthymia alone and those with double depression felt little control over their own lives. People with these conditions felt that external forces -- other people or fate -- determined their future. Those suffering from major depression alone did not have this characteristic.​