Discussion Do y'all ever feel like ctb-ing in the messiest way possible?

[nihilistic_dragon]

I've been thinking things through for a long time now, all the logistics and everything. I used to think I would leave some cash for whoever finds me to pay for whatever cleanup/damages they may need to have to deal with; maybe put on a waterproof mattress cover to contain the fluids; etc and etc. I was going to leave a note explaining why I think euthanasia should be available to everybody.

But lately I have been feeling rebellious.

I want a riot.

A pro-euthanasia freaking riot.

Because leaving this shit planet shouldn't be this difficult.

So I am in the mood to leave as much mess as I can. Just out of spite. Not going to leave them any money either, screw that. Maybe some day the society will get tired of cleaning up messes and will finally allow people to just pass in peace, without the fear of waking up to messed up health, without any stigma. So yeah, I think I will leave them my little pro-euthanasia essay and one hell of a mess.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I def understand the urge and mood FOR SURE.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Yes, I always wanted to do it with a 12 gauge shotgun, and have my own head explode like a watermelon, leaving brain matter everywhere and a massive pool of blood beneath me.

I used to read graphic descriptions of crime scene clean ups, and shotgun murders/suicides always seemed to resonate with me in a way that I can't explain, like the want to leave the most incomprehensibly horrible mess just to screw with those who found my body, I.E Family or Police.

I always thought I was the only one who wanted this.

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

When I was a child I used to have to bury dead animals sometimes. Whether that was a dog that got out and was run over by a car or a sick animal getting into the yard and finding a brush to hide under. It wasn't pleasant but someone had to do it and that person just happened to be me. Not leaving a mess for whoever has to find me is one of the few requirements I have when choosing a method. But reading this really resonates. I can't fault your logic at all.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Yes, I always wanted to do it with a 12 gauge shotgun, and have my own head explode like a watermelon, leaving brain matter everywhere and a massive pool of blood beneath me.

I used to read graphic descriptions of crime scene clean ups, and shotgun murders/suicides always seemed to resonate with me in a way that I can't explain, like the want to leave the most incomprehensibly horrible mess just to screw with those who found my body, I.E Family or Police.

I always thought I was the only one who wanted this.

Oh yes, totally relatable. I just want to leave a huge mess and I won't even feel bad about it.

When I was a child I used to have to bury dead animals sometimes. Whether that was a dog that got out and was run over by a car or a sick animal getting into the yard and finding a brush to hide under. It wasn't pleasant but someone had to do it and that person just happened to be me. Not leaving a mess for whoever has to find me is one of the few requirements I have when choosing a method. But reading this really resonates. I can't fault your logic at all.

Yeah I used to kind of want to be a "good citizen" one last time and be the least inconvenience possible, but at this point I don't see why I would want to do that. The society created this problem and it has to deal with the consequences of its stupid legislations on its own, I will have not part of it since I was not involved in the creation of this problem.