Do I really want to die ?

[Slow85]

I wonder if anyone else has any other experiences with this

I desperately want to die. Depression has eaten away at me for months . My life isn't a life at all anymore - I won't bore you with the details

However I've not been able to go through with it ? Is this because I really actually DONT want to die? Am I just fantasising ?

 

[Whited Sepulchre]

Guess the real answer lies within u. But tbh, killing oneself isn't a piece of cake like anti-suicide-minded folks imagine. And we all innately have a subconscious part dat struggles to keep us surviving. I mean our bodies literally will do anything to keep us alive, as funny as dat sounds.

 

[Slow85]

It makes perfect sense ......

 

[GirlBye]

Only you can answer that I'm afraid, no one else will have that answer. Its something that i have also questioned a lot. I want to just be gone, i would rather die in my sleep peacefully and unknowing but i know as a semi healthy person that isn't going to happen, which is why i want to ctb but a few times i have had the means and the time to do so but haven't gone through with it. Maybe you're just not ready yet. Only you know.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I think it can be said that many who become suicidal don't want to die, they just want the pain of life to stop. It just so happens that a surefire way to make the pain stop is to die.

 

[Dewdmael]

I wonder if anyone else has any other experiences with this

I desperately want to die. Depression has eaten away at me for months . My life isn't a life at all anymore - I won't bore you with the details

However I've not been able to go through with it ? Is this because I really actually DONT want to die? Am I just fantasising ?

I don't think any of us want to die. What we want is to get out of this shittiness that we find ourselves in. Life can be beautiful, but It mostly sucks, imho. I think we are just sick of getting shitted on by God. Hopefully he can't (or won't) throw us into hell. Hopefully he'll save us somehow if he actually is a nice person. (lmao right)